Hi, if you're hear reading this anyways.
It has been awhile since I posted in here, mainly because we have a lot going on that I don't want to openly discuss yet. Soon enough I will, I am sure.
Life has been hectic, busy honestly. Very busy. A lot of changes are coming our families way and we are excited for them. They will hopefully (we believe anyways) bring what we need, a better and new future.
The boys are wonderful. All 3 are growing daily and they need to slow down a bit!
G is doing wonderful in Kinder and his soccer season ends on Thursday. He has taken quite wonderfully to the sport. Scoring many times during each game. I'm sad to see the season end but we will definitely be doing it again next year and possibly looking into t-ball this spring! He's doing well with sight words and learning to put them together. We are working on reading now as well. His writing is improving much more also.
D is devilish. I mean this child is seriously the rambunctious one of our 3 and he definitely lives up to the nick name trouble. So much energy! However in his escapades he's so sweet, caring and definitely funny. He has his moments with B but you can tell he loves him. He fights with G, but honestly I would probably be worried if we didn't have spats here and there. He is definitely his own and can go from moving so fast to wanting to snuggle. His speech is getting so much better and we are working on counting. So far 3 is as far as he gets and that's perfectly fine!
B is growing so quickly, not sure how I feel about that! It's so neat to see him change into his own little person instead of that whole baby blob thing you get. He is also trying to keep up with the older boys as far as playing and getting their attention. They don't ignore him, they love to help him. He's so goofy as well. When he gets into a mood, its so funny to watch. He goes bouncing off the walls toddler crazy! He is getting over a horrible sinus infection and getting all 4 1st year molars as well, he has just been so pleasant. I love him no less though!
That is our life currently. All 3 boys are great, we are working hard on making changes in our lives. I don't plan on ignoring my blog much longer, promise.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Friday, September 30, 2011
The land of Sickies
Remember how I posted about G bringing home that wonderful head cold the first week of school? Well, the damn thing is still hanging out at our house, however it's causing more problems then we need or that I even want.
The annoying part left, we were all no longer feeling the pressure inside our heads push out and that fun stuff. But then I realized runny noses and the coughing was lingering. I figured hey, it's starting to get cold out and such, its just hanging on. However a few days passed, still there. Then a week, still there. Two then finally we were in our 3rd week and I had enough. I took G to his Dr on Wednesday to deal with it. He had it the longest and it was starting to stop him from sleeping. The constant coughing fits were becoming too much for him to take. Nothing we were trying was working.
So, he prescribed him Amoxicillian. He has an ear infection in one ear on top of it all. He's been on it a bit longer than anyone else.
So, then today I had enough with B's constant fits. Poor guy had absolutely no sleep last night. How can I let my 12mo baby just go through this? I couldn't anymore. I tried everything, nothing was working. He was getting worse. I can't deal with that, I can't see him like this. So I called their Doctor and totally spaced on her telling me last week that she would be gone Wed and Fri (office closed always on Thur) so I had to either take him to Urgent Care or the local Walk-In Clinic. I opted for the walk in. I took D as well because he of course was suffering just as much.
D is pretty much going through the same thing as G is, so that was the same prescription.
B however has double ear infections and then a stinking sinus infection with fatigue. No wonder he's miserable! I knew the fatigue because he just can't sleep. The coughing, it's so constant. J was up last night with him till I got up for the day to get G ready for school. I'm glad to have answers, I'm glad to have the ball rolling to get them all healthy again. B can't have amox like the other two so he was given a different kind. But they've all been started so hopefully we'll see progress very soon! B really needs the sleep and we are to the point wherever he falls asleep is where we leave him till he wakes. Unless it's at night, then he's in his bed.
So that is what is going on here. The land is Sickies. So pitiful, so miserable.
The annoying part left, we were all no longer feeling the pressure inside our heads push out and that fun stuff. But then I realized runny noses and the coughing was lingering. I figured hey, it's starting to get cold out and such, its just hanging on. However a few days passed, still there. Then a week, still there. Two then finally we were in our 3rd week and I had enough. I took G to his Dr on Wednesday to deal with it. He had it the longest and it was starting to stop him from sleeping. The constant coughing fits were becoming too much for him to take. Nothing we were trying was working.
So, he prescribed him Amoxicillian. He has an ear infection in one ear on top of it all. He's been on it a bit longer than anyone else.
So, then today I had enough with B's constant fits. Poor guy had absolutely no sleep last night. How can I let my 12mo baby just go through this? I couldn't anymore. I tried everything, nothing was working. He was getting worse. I can't deal with that, I can't see him like this. So I called their Doctor and totally spaced on her telling me last week that she would be gone Wed and Fri (office closed always on Thur) so I had to either take him to Urgent Care or the local Walk-In Clinic. I opted for the walk in. I took D as well because he of course was suffering just as much.
D is pretty much going through the same thing as G is, so that was the same prescription.
B however has double ear infections and then a stinking sinus infection with fatigue. No wonder he's miserable! I knew the fatigue because he just can't sleep. The coughing, it's so constant. J was up last night with him till I got up for the day to get G ready for school. I'm glad to have answers, I'm glad to have the ball rolling to get them all healthy again. B can't have amox like the other two so he was given a different kind. But they've all been started so hopefully we'll see progress very soon! B really needs the sleep and we are to the point wherever he falls asleep is where we leave him till he wakes. Unless it's at night, then he's in his bed.
So that is what is going on here. The land is Sickies. So pitiful, so miserable.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
A lot going on
We currently have a lot going on so please bear with me if there are no posts for awhile. Trying to find balance in our lives.
Friday, September 9, 2011
The first week of School
I had wanted to wait until G completed his whole first week of school before posting about it. But, he kinda did yesterday, not but really. If that makes any sense. Thursday, yesterday actually, he came home and was acting a bit off. We thought maybe he had gotten in trouble again like he did on the first day of school. Which was an understandable reason as to why he got into trouble. He wasn't used to the schedule and that lunch and snacks are at certain times, so constantly asking is going to land you in time out. It did. He wasn't punished at home. I had to have a long talk with him though. Information needs to be dragged out of him. I can tell something is wrong but he won't just let it out. So I talk, he answers, I slowly get it out of him. It works. No mean mom stuff.
Anyways, the 2nd day according to him was much better. They did math and science. They had 3 recess' and even a nap. Then yesterday, he came home. Told me he had a good day. But we could tell something wasn't right. He just wasn't himself. We thought maybe he got into trouble again and didn't want to tell us for fear of getting into trouble. Which wouldn't happen, unless it was something very serious. If it was another issue like being warned and not stopping, then going into time out, punishment was done, no need to carry over at home. A quick talk would be it. But he said he didn't get into trouble and swore up and down. I believe him. Then, he started getting upset (about an hour after being home). Complaining of not being able to swallow because it hurt. J looked in his throat, it was red. He felt warm. So off to Urgent Care. My children have this thing about doing any sort of injury or illness during Dr hours it seems. Anyways, we get there. Red throat, coughing, runny nose, sounding stuffed up. He still complained of swallowing hurting and was wallowing. I cuddled him and tried to make him laugh.
Dr. saw him, confirmed red throat. Did a swab test and we waited about 10 minutes for the results. It came back negative. It was being sent out for a culture but he was thinking it was viral and would just pass through soon. So, off we went. He got worse through the night so I ended up calling off on his first Friday. Didn't want too but I wasn't sending him in case he was contagious. So he knew there was no playing around today, which honestly he didn't look like he could. He's been holding a mild fever all day, very lethargic. We made up a makeshift bed in our room. Bunch of blankets on the floor for cushion and he has 2 himself to cover up with. I have the fan in our window because he's been going between hot and cold. He can also watch movies without being downstairs and getting his little brothers sick. My poor guy. First week of school and he already caught his first bug.
J and I have been chugging Emergen-C like it's going out of style. We know it's evident we'll eventually get sick, but hey, we can at least attempt to hold it off for as long as possible!
So, that's his first technical week. :)
Anyways, the 2nd day according to him was much better. They did math and science. They had 3 recess' and even a nap. Then yesterday, he came home. Told me he had a good day. But we could tell something wasn't right. He just wasn't himself. We thought maybe he got into trouble again and didn't want to tell us for fear of getting into trouble. Which wouldn't happen, unless it was something very serious. If it was another issue like being warned and not stopping, then going into time out, punishment was done, no need to carry over at home. A quick talk would be it. But he said he didn't get into trouble and swore up and down. I believe him. Then, he started getting upset (about an hour after being home). Complaining of not being able to swallow because it hurt. J looked in his throat, it was red. He felt warm. So off to Urgent Care. My children have this thing about doing any sort of injury or illness during Dr hours it seems. Anyways, we get there. Red throat, coughing, runny nose, sounding stuffed up. He still complained of swallowing hurting and was wallowing. I cuddled him and tried to make him laugh.
Dr. saw him, confirmed red throat. Did a swab test and we waited about 10 minutes for the results. It came back negative. It was being sent out for a culture but he was thinking it was viral and would just pass through soon. So, off we went. He got worse through the night so I ended up calling off on his first Friday. Didn't want too but I wasn't sending him in case he was contagious. So he knew there was no playing around today, which honestly he didn't look like he could. He's been holding a mild fever all day, very lethargic. We made up a makeshift bed in our room. Bunch of blankets on the floor for cushion and he has 2 himself to cover up with. I have the fan in our window because he's been going between hot and cold. He can also watch movies without being downstairs and getting his little brothers sick. My poor guy. First week of school and he already caught his first bug.
J and I have been chugging Emergen-C like it's going out of style. We know it's evident we'll eventually get sick, but hey, we can at least attempt to hold it off for as long as possible!
So, that's his first technical week. :)
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
A walking One year old and a Kindergartner
It's so weird right now, so weird. I currently have only two children at home! Two. I'm used to three and right about now I would have two screaming boys at each other's throats and the whole me having to mediate. But not this morning, this morning I woke up at 6 and got my Kindergartner up at 630. Yes, my Kindergartner! He ate breakfast and got dressed, then off to the bus stop we went. It's located at the entrance of our neighborhood and we live in the back, so we drive down. He waited at the bus stop with his new friend and got on the bus without ever looking back. I'm so proud of him, he will do great, I know it. I however am nervous. Mainly because I can't wait to hug him and see how his first day went. Tomorrow we'll repeat the process.
Then in this whole same week, B turned one and wasn't walking. Then yesterday he decided to start out of the blue! It totally came out of nowhere, not coaxed either. We (me, J, my mom and step-dad) were just hanging out and B stood up, then stood for a minute and took off. Nobody trying to get him to walk to them or anything. All on his own! Then he proceeded to make his walking farther and farther the rest of the day. I can't believe it! We joked he wouldn't walk forever because he was so hesitant. He just needed to get that last nerve and he did :) My baby is walking and my other baby is in school!
D is adjusting so far. He went pee on the potty already, unprompted! I hope with G in school that potty training will become easy and not a hassle. I think be being able to have more focus on just D will bring ease to him. Lets hope for an easy process because I honestly think he's getting even more ready by the day.
A video of B walking yesterday:
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| G all set for school with his Mario back pack and Sonic t-shirt. Oh and a crazy baby brother behind him. |
Saturday, September 3, 2011
A little break, please?
So today B and I spent a good portion in Urgent Care. Why? Because my sweet little baby has an infection in his finger. Yup, his finger. See I went through an infection with D at the same age, granted two totally different types but still an infection around their 1st birthday. I don't like this.
It looks like it was caused by a small cut or crack in his skin. He doesn't walk yet so he still crawls. We have 2 brothers, 4 cats and 2 dogs. Gunk gets around no matter how much I try and sweep the floors. So, it became infected. He is now on an antibacterial and hopefully it will help. We have to attempt to keep it dry and clean as well as bandaged. So far I have replaced the band-aid like 5 times. Once before we even left urgent care! A 1 year old isn't going to keep it on if he doesn't want it on.
So he is okay, it never once bothered him. He woke up from his nap and I noticed his finger was red. I didn't think anything of it, I figured he's teething he was probably sucking or chewing on it. Then I noticed it was a bit bigger then it should have been. So I called J over to look at it and he said it looked really infected and that there was a puss pocket. Great. So, I packed him up and off to urgent care we went. I don't take lightly to infections. If you know the ordeal with D, then you understand. So yes, even a little finger infection is very very serious to me. Ever since dealing with D's abscess, I have been a wreck when it comes to them. I don't take any sickness lightly. I mean, I am not over zealous or crazy, but I watch it and if it seems to be serious or need attention, I take them to the Dr. But my children have that sense of day because they never do these things on a week day, when their Dr office is open. So I tend to go to Urgent care. Or sometimes the ER.
However, he's okay. He'll be fine and hopefully it goes down. I will be making his 1 year appointment and will have her check it out then.
Going to see if I can't get my sweet baby to bed because this mama is tired!
It looks like it was caused by a small cut or crack in his skin. He doesn't walk yet so he still crawls. We have 2 brothers, 4 cats and 2 dogs. Gunk gets around no matter how much I try and sweep the floors. So, it became infected. He is now on an antibacterial and hopefully it will help. We have to attempt to keep it dry and clean as well as bandaged. So far I have replaced the band-aid like 5 times. Once before we even left urgent care! A 1 year old isn't going to keep it on if he doesn't want it on.
So he is okay, it never once bothered him. He woke up from his nap and I noticed his finger was red. I didn't think anything of it, I figured he's teething he was probably sucking or chewing on it. Then I noticed it was a bit bigger then it should have been. So I called J over to look at it and he said it looked really infected and that there was a puss pocket. Great. So, I packed him up and off to urgent care we went. I don't take lightly to infections. If you know the ordeal with D, then you understand. So yes, even a little finger infection is very very serious to me. Ever since dealing with D's abscess, I have been a wreck when it comes to them. I don't take any sickness lightly. I mean, I am not over zealous or crazy, but I watch it and if it seems to be serious or need attention, I take them to the Dr. But my children have that sense of day because they never do these things on a week day, when their Dr office is open. So I tend to go to Urgent care. Or sometimes the ER.
However, he's okay. He'll be fine and hopefully it goes down. I will be making his 1 year appointment and will have her check it out then.
Going to see if I can't get my sweet baby to bed because this mama is tired!
Friday, September 2, 2011
Open House
Wednesday was our first open house for school. Neither of us knew what to expect but honestly, it wasn't bad at all. D had been at Grandmas for a few hours already (he suckered her into staying when we picked something up from her house before errands) so all we had to do was drop B off at her house. Did our errands first, which involved the store. Had to go home and drop the cold stuff off and I hopped into the shower. Then it was off to my moms to drop off B and we were off from there.
It started at 630 and we live about 10 miles give or take from the school itself. We arrived and headed in, saw on the entry door about the local district's recreational soccer league. Both J and I got an excited look on our faces and headed into the cafeteria/gym. They handed out a bunch of free book so we came home with a boat load it seems. Then we grabbed the registration form for the soccer. I'm not sure who's more excited, G or myself.
After we left the cafeteria, we headed to his classroom and met his teacher. Gathered all the information that she had laid out, filled out a few things that were needed. He started acting distant and with drawn, I asked him what was wrong and he just told me he was hungry. I then knew instantly what was up. He was nervous. I gave him a hug and said everything was going to be okay. That it's perfectly fine and normal to be nervous. But we know he'll do great, its his personality. He's such an outgoing and friendly boy. I don't worry about how he'll handle being at school. But I will comfort him with his nerves.
So only FOUR days to go! I can't believe we're so close already. Open house was good, got all our info, signed him up for soccer and we're ready to start this next chapter in our lives.
It started at 630 and we live about 10 miles give or take from the school itself. We arrived and headed in, saw on the entry door about the local district's recreational soccer league. Both J and I got an excited look on our faces and headed into the cafeteria/gym. They handed out a bunch of free book so we came home with a boat load it seems. Then we grabbed the registration form for the soccer. I'm not sure who's more excited, G or myself.
After we left the cafeteria, we headed to his classroom and met his teacher. Gathered all the information that she had laid out, filled out a few things that were needed. He started acting distant and with drawn, I asked him what was wrong and he just told me he was hungry. I then knew instantly what was up. He was nervous. I gave him a hug and said everything was going to be okay. That it's perfectly fine and normal to be nervous. But we know he'll do great, its his personality. He's such an outgoing and friendly boy. I don't worry about how he'll handle being at school. But I will comfort him with his nerves.
So only FOUR days to go! I can't believe we're so close already. Open house was good, got all our info, signed him up for soccer and we're ready to start this next chapter in our lives.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
B is One!
It has been a great day. He woke up at 630 and while it wasn't ideal (I was hoping to get stuff done before anyone woke up, I was up at 615) it was nice to have time with him. Then I started doing dishes and he of course likes to hang out in the dishwasher. So, I put on Despicable Me for him and he sat, amazed at the colors and the minions. He even laughed at a few parts with them. It was adorable :)
He had a great day. Enjoyed his little cupcakes and was gifted a wooden block train, 2 outfits and a pair of pj's from grandma and papa, $25 and a sweet card from nana (great grandma) and a home made knot tie blanket from mama and daddy as well as the big brothers. It was a small birthday gathering, but we had a good time. He kept crawling all over his gift from grandma and papa that the brothers finally stepped in and helped him open it up.
He isn't walking yet but wants to. He does dance in place which is quite cute. But he's so so so close. He's the first of the 3 to not be walking before 1 and you know, I'm okay with that! A little longer of keeping him as a baby, not toddling so he isn't a toddler. Yay +1 there, haha.
Like the same fashion as last year, the weather was the same. Not as humid but just as hot. It's bittersweet. I know we're not done yet, but we are for a few years. So he's our last baby right now. To have him be One is kinda hard to imagine. Silly, yes, but still hard.
He was on the local news also! They do birthdays for the 1st birthday and 10th birthday. He was also the only birthday today! So extra special :)
The above photo was taken a few days ago on a gift from grandma and papa, the ducky aka quack quack chair.
One year ago today..
Just born!
Happy 1st Birthday sweet baby boy. We love you so so much.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Dear 630am
You bite. Yes, there, I said it. You bite. I understand why I have to meet you every morning, well, until tomorrow, but it still doesn't make me like you anymore.
I knew it was coming, I didn't want it to but I knew it was. I really don't like this whole getting up early. The boys thought 8 was good enough, I adjusted to that. Then they let me sleep till 930. Do you know how hard it is to adjust going from that late to 630 and now 6 as of tomorrow? Pretty darn difficult.
B keeps me company, starting tomorrow G will as well. I will see how he does and we may have to adjust bed times along with the early wake up. His current bed time is 830, an hour after D. That gives D a good amount of time to fall asleep without distraction and then the same for Gage.
Yuck. School, you stink. I can't believe though that G starts school a week from today. I think we are all set, I hope so anyways. Tomorrow is open house so we'll get more info and such.
I'm not ready for him to be starting school! I am but I'm not, if that makes sense. He is 100% ready and we have a count down for him on the chalk board.
I knew it was coming, I didn't want it to but I knew it was. I really don't like this whole getting up early. The boys thought 8 was good enough, I adjusted to that. Then they let me sleep till 930. Do you know how hard it is to adjust going from that late to 630 and now 6 as of tomorrow? Pretty darn difficult.
B keeps me company, starting tomorrow G will as well. I will see how he does and we may have to adjust bed times along with the early wake up. His current bed time is 830, an hour after D. That gives D a good amount of time to fall asleep without distraction and then the same for Gage.
Yuck. School, you stink. I can't believe though that G starts school a week from today. I think we are all set, I hope so anyways. Tomorrow is open house so we'll get more info and such.
I'm not ready for him to be starting school! I am but I'm not, if that makes sense. He is 100% ready and we have a count down for him on the chalk board.
Monday, August 29, 2011
A venting place
I have decided to create a blog for me to specifically vent, just to say what I want to say, but do it privately. I have moments on here where I just want to let it all out but don't, mainly because I don't want everyone reading. So, I figured my solution to that issue would be to create another blog, set it to where you need an invite to read.
I'm open for people reading if they'll respect my rights to just vent. It won't be totally censored with swearing. I have slip ups and I am working hard on not doing it, but hey, I'm human. However, not everything that is on my mind is meant for everyone specifically to see. I know it's the internet and such but I have moments that I just need to get things off my chest.
If you are interested, please let me know. I want to know who is reading my upsets and hope that they'll have the respect for me to keep what they read on those pages in that blog, there.
Note: If you are on my livejournal, I'll be doing most of that private posting on my new blog if you're interested. I do still plan to use my LJ and want to keep up with those of you who post privately. So please don't delete me off of there.
I'm open for people reading if they'll respect my rights to just vent. It won't be totally censored with swearing. I have slip ups and I am working hard on not doing it, but hey, I'm human. However, not everything that is on my mind is meant for everyone specifically to see. I know it's the internet and such but I have moments that I just need to get things off my chest.
If you are interested, please let me know. I want to know who is reading my upsets and hope that they'll have the respect for me to keep what they read on those pages in that blog, there.
Note: If you are on my livejournal, I'll be doing most of that private posting on my new blog if you're interested. I do still plan to use my LJ and want to keep up with those of you who post privately. So please don't delete me off of there.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
The Great Birthday Debate
What do you get an almost 1 year old who has a crap load of toys from his brothers? No, honestly, what do you get? We have no idea. I had one but J thought it would be better for Christmas and I agreed. So we're back to square one. We made him a knot tie blanket, Owls. I'm in love with it and I hope he loves it as much as his brothers love theirs.
But as far as a gift, what do we get him? We don't need to get him anything big or fancy. Just something for him. He's sharing everything (even when we ask them to leave his toys alone) and we would like just one thing for him to play with. We know that'll be hard given brothers who think they can have everything but not share, but we want to try.
I'm at a total loss! I'm in denial that he's already turning one, then on top of my denial I have to face it with this whole gift thing.
My baby is NOT turning one and will NOT need a gift. I guess that'll solve the problem haha.
But as far as a gift, what do we get him? We don't need to get him anything big or fancy. Just something for him. He's sharing everything (even when we ask them to leave his toys alone) and we would like just one thing for him to play with. We know that'll be hard given brothers who think they can have everything but not share, but we want to try.
I'm at a total loss! I'm in denial that he's already turning one, then on top of my denial I have to face it with this whole gift thing.
My baby is NOT turning one and will NOT need a gift. I guess that'll solve the problem haha.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Prepping for School
Its still so strange to be at this part in our lives with our oldest. It's just honestly flat out odd. I swear it was just yesterday we brought him home from the hospital. Sat him on our bed and thought "what now?" Now, he's 5, going on 6 and is just so energetic, smart, brave and handsome. When did my teeny 7lbs 5oz baby become this tall, young, handsome little boy? Who's starting freaking Kindergarten!
I feel totally clueless in this department. I really don't know who to turn to for support. I have friends on forums who have had kids go through kinder and such but nobody local. My mom is here but her youngest is well, me, so it's obviously been years since she has had a baby in Kindergarten.
I'm not ready. I know I have to suck it up and put on a happy face but I'm not ready! Let me stomp my foot for a moment if you don't mind. Why now? Why have the past 5 1/2 years flown by so quickly that he's going to school? I know it'll do wonders for him. He's so social and friendly, he is excited to learn. School will be a good thing for him. But is it selfish of me that I don't want to let go of him? I want to keep him home with me.
I could home school but in all honesty as much as I would love to, I know he wouldn't do well with it. I wouldn't do well with it. I think he'll learn better when it isn't me trying to teach him. I have done well so far. He can say and write out his ABC's, he can spell his own name, he can recite our home address and my cell number. He's a smart cookie and absorbs knowledge like it's nothing, but, having him gone for so long? I'm not sure how I'll adjust. I will, I know I will.
I don't worry about him. I know him and he is going to do wonderful. He will make tons of friends and do so well. I do hope that he listens, he can be a little problematic in that department. With routine and some stern voices, I know he'll be fine. He just gets so excited and wants to do so many things, that's where it falters. I know he'll do fine. He's always been the one who I knew would be just fine without me when it came to school.
He's ready and so excited, I just need to find how to get to that same place.
I feel totally clueless in this department. I really don't know who to turn to for support. I have friends on forums who have had kids go through kinder and such but nobody local. My mom is here but her youngest is well, me, so it's obviously been years since she has had a baby in Kindergarten.
I'm not ready. I know I have to suck it up and put on a happy face but I'm not ready! Let me stomp my foot for a moment if you don't mind. Why now? Why have the past 5 1/2 years flown by so quickly that he's going to school? I know it'll do wonders for him. He's so social and friendly, he is excited to learn. School will be a good thing for him. But is it selfish of me that I don't want to let go of him? I want to keep him home with me.
I could home school but in all honesty as much as I would love to, I know he wouldn't do well with it. I wouldn't do well with it. I think he'll learn better when it isn't me trying to teach him. I have done well so far. He can say and write out his ABC's, he can spell his own name, he can recite our home address and my cell number. He's a smart cookie and absorbs knowledge like it's nothing, but, having him gone for so long? I'm not sure how I'll adjust. I will, I know I will.
I don't worry about him. I know him and he is going to do wonderful. He will make tons of friends and do so well. I do hope that he listens, he can be a little problematic in that department. With routine and some stern voices, I know he'll be fine. He just gets so excited and wants to do so many things, that's where it falters. I know he'll do fine. He's always been the one who I knew would be just fine without me when it came to school.
He's ready and so excited, I just need to find how to get to that same place.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Six years of Wedded bliss, aka, washing his underwear.
We have been together almost seven years, now married six. Most people probably thought we'd be divorced before our first anniversary. If you were one, bite me! Marriage is hard. Very hard and if anyone tells you otherwise they're lying or in major denial. He pushes all the wrong buttons, he knows how to make my knees shake. He can place his hand on my shoulder and let me know everything will be okay.
We aren't perfect and I don't claim to be and never will. I have learned you really need to speak your feelings. Holding them in will honestly just make it so much worse. However after six years, I still do it. I just have my moments. It pisses him off but he does the same thing. We're human. We argue but we make up, move past it. If we can't have disagreements, we're living in a fantasy.
In those Six years of marriage we have had three beautiful sons. I know most people do the math from when we were married, together and had our oldest. The answer to your question is yes. However, he was not the reason for the marriage. He was an added perk. Our three boys mean so much to us. We are growing with them, learning from them and loving them.
He has taught me how to be less selfish (I would be lying if I said I wasn't selfish at all. I have my moments), he has taught me how to love and feel beautiful/acceptable. He shows me he loves me, cares about me. He works hard for us. He does his best and beyond. Without him, I wouldn't be complete. I wouldn't have my 3 beautiful boys, I wouldn't have my best friend. I wouldn't have my partner, my Jase. I am my own, but he adds so much to me. Our marriage isn't perfect but it is a very good one.
Here are to six more years and then 50 more on top of that. He stole my heart and then split it with my boys.
I love at the end of the day, my hand fits perfectly into his. <3
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Brothers
Some photos of my boys as of recent that have really melted my heart. They are all getting so big and have started to bond which I love. Seeing them play together nicely and honestly, even when they fight I am happy to see them grow together. These are some recent photos that have just made my day.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
It's all apart of Growing up.
I was sitting next to him in another chair and he jumped up and yelled "It fell out, it fell out!" then started his typical 5 year old happy dance. Came over to me and plopped that tooth right in my hand an went "SEEE! It fell OUT!"
I was so happy for him, mainly because I was very afraid on how he'd react. He doesn't like blood. He knocked hit much more loose the other day and freaked out. Didn't do well with it at all. I calmed him down and he then became very sensitive to the tooth, by that, I mean he was afraid to eat basically. I convinced him he'd be fine. It's all the process of losing a tooth and this being his first, his fears were very understandable. We wanted him to take it in stride and not force anything. When it falls out, it falls out basically. That's exactly what happened and he did great. Didn't even freak when he saw the blood in his spit. I'm so proud of him! Soon his other tooth will become much more loose and he'll have 2 gone. He's growing far too fast. A missing tooth, starting kinder and will soon be 6. Where did my biggest baby go?!
Oh and he was given $5 from Grandma and Papa for losing his 1st tooth (and was told that was for the first one only haha) and then the Tooth Fairy (he believes) brought him as he put it "Two whole one dollars!"
So proud of you buddy!
Friday, August 12, 2011
Starting to Wonder
I know we aren't the only ones who are struggling and honestly I'm not open about it because, why should I have to be? We have been doing all we can to get ahead yet we seem to keep falling back. When is our break? Two years in a few months, that's how long we've been struggling and pushing through. Going up and down the stupid roller coaster begging and pleading to get off of it. Yet, that life handler, the one who holds the key to shutting the machine off is refusing. One step forward, five steps back. That's what it feels like anyways. The worlds weight is getting slightly heavy.
When is our break? It's becoming so soul crushing to know that it's not getting better, it's in fact getting worse. Having any hope anymore just doesn't exist. I'm beyond stressed, we are trying to figure everything out to survive and yet we're falling short. I feel like we're failing. We could sit here and do nothing, but we're trying.
I have become very thankful for certain people in my life. They have been there to listen to me at my worst, support me no matter what and just be a wonderful shoulder to lean on. Our families have been wonderful, so supportive in trying to help us the best that they can but they also have things going on with them.
I just feel like a burden when talking about my life. Why would anyone honestly want to listen to it? We are doing our best, we are exhausting all we can to figure out what to do on our next try. I just don't know anymore. How many times can someone be picked up then knocked right back down again?
Please don't tell me life will get better. It honestly does not help. It may get better but unless that happens in the next 15 minutes, it means diddly squat to me. I can't take it anymore.
Faith, that word means joke to me now.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
No book review yet
I'm not done yet with the book. Close, but not done. Once I'm done we are going to start putting our plan into action. One thing we have done is started to change the discipline. We've read that part of the book, both of us and I have it written down as a quick go to guide as well as having it marked off in the book. I have noticed breaking my discipline habits are going to be hard but I have done good so far. That is important as well. So, it hasn't been easy but it's worked when we have been 100% successful in following her guidelines. Jason has been doing a great job as well!
So, tonight I plan on finishing the book and then we both will sit down at the dining table and make out our rules and schedule. This honestly comes at a perfect time because Gage starts school next month and I planned on starting a new schedule/routine to get us all ready for him to go. So this works out great on timing. I can work it out to fit the school routine.
That is where we are right now. I am going to try and do a detailed review of each section and such. So far I really do recommend this book if you are in a similar situation as us. Where nothing seems to be working, you are getting way too angry/frustrated and its lashing out. They laugh at you when you try to discipline. We were at the end of our rope and so far it is working. I have high hopes. We just need to do our part and stick to it, not give in.
Off to finish the book and then start our strategy!
So, tonight I plan on finishing the book and then we both will sit down at the dining table and make out our rules and schedule. This honestly comes at a perfect time because Gage starts school next month and I planned on starting a new schedule/routine to get us all ready for him to go. So this works out great on timing. I can work it out to fit the school routine.
That is where we are right now. I am going to try and do a detailed review of each section and such. So far I really do recommend this book if you are in a similar situation as us. Where nothing seems to be working, you are getting way too angry/frustrated and its lashing out. They laugh at you when you try to discipline. We were at the end of our rope and so far it is working. I have high hopes. We just need to do our part and stick to it, not give in.
Off to finish the book and then start our strategy!
Friday, July 29, 2011
A change of plans
When we became parents we honestly had no clue what we were doing. We were young and in love, we loved our first born. He was our easiest baby and toddler. He's definitely proven at times to be a stickler in the whole 5 year old range. However, he's definitely smart and knows what he wants.
Dane is our most difficult. Mainly we were spoiled with the first child that we yes, did expect the same thing to happen again. Who doesn't dream to have two easy going, easy teething, crawling, walking, talking, happy go lucky babies twice? Who doesn't dream to have a toddler who is content to play and not get into cabinets or play with cords? Yes, we had our moments with Gage. He did give us some run for our money but mainly, he was such a laid back child. The big D however is loud, rambunctious, into every. single. thing. possible. He has his volume set to extremely screeching loud. I know a good portion of it is vying for our attention because well, he has an older brother to compete with and a younger brother. They all get their own time and attention from us but what 2.5 year old doesn't want more? Listening, the word is next to Joke in Dane's dictionary.
Bishop, well he's still only a baby. He does what most babies do. Crawls everywhere, is standing up, pulling up on furniture and starting to brave it and standing on his own. He tests the waters. Mainly with climbing the stairs. He'll get to the 2nd stair and then look back at you and smile. That means he's going to bolt so telling him no is pointless to him.
However lately things have been.. difficult. Jason and I have actually sat down and discussed how we're lost, we're both tired of the same routine and nothing is happening or getting better. We figured it out, it's us. We need a change and we are making that change.
We have seen the show Supernanny. Yeah, I know, what parent honestly turns to a TV show? Well after trying and trying and nothing working, we have. Not really the TV show but the nanny herself. Borders is sadly closing (but it worked in my favor) and I bought a book by Jo Frost called How To Get The Best Of Your Children.
So, I am working on reading it. We are going to be serious about this. We want to be good parents and right now we feel like we are both failing. Something has to change, we do give in more then we should and it is starting to back fire on us. If we can find a way to be consistant and set, if we can find a way to make good on our word better then we have and this book can help us? Great.
I will review it when I am done. So far I am liking it. I have had to jump around a bit to find specific things that we are dealing with. Such as bed time, but I have been reading straight through and taking notes. We will be putting rules on our fridge and both abiding by them and sticking with them. We will also be putting our family time table up, becoming talking clocks. I'll explain it when I review it :)
Lets hope it works! Its up to us, but getting ideas and steps on what to do is what we need the most.
Dane is our most difficult. Mainly we were spoiled with the first child that we yes, did expect the same thing to happen again. Who doesn't dream to have two easy going, easy teething, crawling, walking, talking, happy go lucky babies twice? Who doesn't dream to have a toddler who is content to play and not get into cabinets or play with cords? Yes, we had our moments with Gage. He did give us some run for our money but mainly, he was such a laid back child. The big D however is loud, rambunctious, into every. single. thing. possible. He has his volume set to extremely screeching loud. I know a good portion of it is vying for our attention because well, he has an older brother to compete with and a younger brother. They all get their own time and attention from us but what 2.5 year old doesn't want more? Listening, the word is next to Joke in Dane's dictionary.
Bishop, well he's still only a baby. He does what most babies do. Crawls everywhere, is standing up, pulling up on furniture and starting to brave it and standing on his own. He tests the waters. Mainly with climbing the stairs. He'll get to the 2nd stair and then look back at you and smile. That means he's going to bolt so telling him no is pointless to him.
However lately things have been.. difficult. Jason and I have actually sat down and discussed how we're lost, we're both tired of the same routine and nothing is happening or getting better. We figured it out, it's us. We need a change and we are making that change.
We have seen the show Supernanny. Yeah, I know, what parent honestly turns to a TV show? Well after trying and trying and nothing working, we have. Not really the TV show but the nanny herself. Borders is sadly closing (but it worked in my favor) and I bought a book by Jo Frost called How To Get The Best Of Your Children.
So, I am working on reading it. We are going to be serious about this. We want to be good parents and right now we feel like we are both failing. Something has to change, we do give in more then we should and it is starting to back fire on us. If we can find a way to be consistant and set, if we can find a way to make good on our word better then we have and this book can help us? Great.
I will review it when I am done. So far I am liking it. I have had to jump around a bit to find specific things that we are dealing with. Such as bed time, but I have been reading straight through and taking notes. We will be putting rules on our fridge and both abiding by them and sticking with them. We will also be putting our family time table up, becoming talking clocks. I'll explain it when I review it :)
Lets hope it works! Its up to us, but getting ideas and steps on what to do is what we need the most.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
It all just sucks.
Not positive what has been up with me lately, kinda have fallen into a funk honestly. Life is well, life. Stressful, no real breaks from anything to make it go away but it's there. A constant reminder that things are still tough, they are not getting any better either. We try and try yet continue to fall flat on our faces. It's tiring, very tiring.
I need to get back into the habit. Maybe I'll make another goal for August. Same as I did for June. One post at least for every day of the month, I did damn good with that. I think I will. I want to be back in the habit!
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