An Amazing Story

I belong to a mom forum and it has this part where you as a blogger can sign up and have your blog appear in their update system. Well, I believe that's how it works anyways haha. Well, they have a Facebook page and on it they plugged one of their guest bloggers. Normally I skip over them and go back later when I want to read but this one just caught my eye.

It took me about 3 days to get through because with 3 kids myself, time isn't always there. I'd read some parts of a post when I was nursing Bishop, during a quick mental break or after they were all in bed. Tonight I finished it and it brought tears to my eyes. Happy ones.

This lady has gone through a lot and by that I really mean a lot. I think she is wonderful for sharing her story and journey. It is about her journey with cancer and treating it all while being pregnant. I could not imagine all that goes through a person to be dealing with cancer and then on top of it finding out you're pregnant. The ups and downs, her struggles with it and her outcome just was so capturing. It will sit in my heart forever.

I am glad that I decided to read it even if it took me a few days. I want to share it with those of you who may be reading this. So please take a moment or 3 days (har har) to read this. I am going to link you to the section called The Whole Story, it's last post is actually the most recent published yesterday. So when you're done you'll have to go to the main page to read it. I think it's definitely worth the time to read it.

Bald, Fat and Crazy

Today is just another day

I've come to the conclusion I will one day give birth to a 30 year old. Yup, you read correctly. I honestly think this child has no intentions of ever coming out. Hey, I really wouldn't have an issue with it if I could roll over in bed easily or get off the couch without trying 5 times. If I could do normal things, I just wouldn't care. But I can't, so I do. Kid needs to get the damn memo.

I however have gotten to the point that I go to bed knowing I'll sleep as best as I can and I know I'll wake up still pregnant. My days will go on as they normally have and no labor will come of anything. It's just how it is. I'm 41 weeks tomorrow (40 week belly picture to the left taken 8/22) and I have a feeling tomorrow I'll wake up and just go about my day then go to bed, just like usual. I have no real hope of any day bringing on labor. I wish it would but waking up thinking "Today is the day!" just isn't happening anymore.

We both think that Sept 1st will be his birthday. I really don't have an issue with it, but it would have been nice not going through the whole "due month" waiting for baby. You know? Hey, come out when you're supposed to! I had a feeling he'd be late. I mean, both the other boys were, why would he be any different? It would have been nice to have an early baby but hey, my uterus doesn't play games damn-it.  Gage was born at 40 weeks and 5 days, Dane born at 41 weeks exactly. So it could be possible I go to sleep tonight and be in labor tomorrow, but I highly doubt it. We're thinking labor may start the 31st and Bishop will be born on the 1st.

A joke we've started is when we're ready for baby #4 is that we have to plan for either July or March. Why? Because If Bishop is born in Sept, that puts October between him and Dane's birthdays. Dane was born in November, that puts December in between Gage and Dane's birthday. Since Gage was born in January (due at end of Dec) that would make February the month in between March. So, if we aim for baby #4, We'd have either February in between birthdays or August. So July or March. See where I'm going with this? Its a silly joke but slightly amusing to us.

So basically the point of this post? The kid isn't going to ever come out. I'll be pregnant forever. I've accepted this and will go about my days as the forever pregnant lady. I'll probably make it into Guinness World Records as the freaky pregnant lady. I go to bed and wake up knowing my days will be normal.

The kid hates me, mhm. That's my story and I'm sticking to it. I dare you to prove me wrong child ;)

According to Babycenter.com; 39 weeks

Your baby's waiting to greet the world! He continues to build a layer of fat to help control his body temperature after birth, but it's likely he already measures about 20 inches and weighs a bit over 7 pounds, a mini watermelon. (Boys tend to be slightly heavier than girls.) The outer layers of his skin are sloughing off as new skin forms underneath.

Ah, joy. So I've got a watermelon hanging out inside of me. Really, do we need to put the size of a baby into food perspective? I mean, when he was the size of a Jicama (Seriously, what the hell is that?) that was fine and dandy because it's something i've never heard of. But must we, must we compare the baby to a snack I enjoy? I'll feel guilty the next time I eat a mini watermelon! Damn you babycenter.

Anyways, so I'm 39 weeks and 3 days. I have 4 days until I'm due. I hope he comes sooner then later. I've done the whole late thing, it's not all its cracked up to be. I'm ready, he better be ready. I'm just more ready to be able to stand up without assistance or being able to roll over in bed without it taking 15 damn minutes to do so! Sleep, I want sleep. Also, don't bother with the whole "Once you have a newborn be prepared not to sleep!" I slept better after each of my boys births then I did during my pregnancies, so HA. I know he may be different, but I will still probably sleep better. Dane was our fussy baby, he was the harder one out of our current two. We survived though and you can bet your ass i got more sleep when he was fussier then when I was pregnant. 

I'm ready though. So Bishop, here it is, I'm calling you out kidlet. Time to be born and soon! I'm ready and overly anxious to meet you. We need you out here with us because you'd be such a wonderful welcoming distraction. Plus I bet your uber adorable like your brothers were. Who doesn't love babies? I love babies! So, lets get this party started. You start the labor and I'll do all the hard work, mk? Okay.

Baby and uterus, get the memo! We must prove Naomi wrong ;)

Blame it on the pregnancy

I suck, I know. Even though I don't know why because I doubt anyone is honestly checking up every day to see if there is any sort of update on me and what not. Anyways, I'm 38 weeks pregnant now. I'll be 39 on Sunday and then due the following weekend. It seems like it's dragging forever. Forever, I say! Not a fan of this even though this isn't my first time around on the pony ride. The end is always the suckiest part. Mainly for me because you are in the waiting game. The game your uterus is playing with you. You get fake outs every once and awhile, they're that evil thing called Braxton Hicks contractions. Asshole things honestly.

The end is the worst for me right now this pregnancy mainly because life took over for the rest. Then around 35 weeks everything fell back into it's fucked up place and here I am. Left to sit and think about when this baby will come. Thats the crap part. Not knowing and not having control over it. Since I am having another (my 2nd) home birth I basically get to sit and twiddle my thumbs. Its in Bishop's court now. Figures. My kids like to come late to the party.

So, yeah, life has been interestingly boring. The bigger kids keep me occupied but when you have 5+ weeks left to dwell on a pregnancy that flew by for 34 weeks, it sucks. Every twinge, every contraction, weird feeling and all that jazz makes you go crazy. If I could I'd ask for an induction. I won't do it because I know it won't happen unless we go forever overdue. But yes I have my moments of weakness, who doesn't? Hell during labor with Dane I wanted to beg for an epidural but I knew it would have been pointless given the fact I was at home and my midwife doesn't drag around an anastesialogist or however the hell you spell it.

So really I've had no excuse for not updating with a photo or some stupid little snippit of my life. Really it's probably just pure laziness that i don't update. I should. Its a fun outlet for random crap going on in my pretty much non eventful life.

Speaking of, the youngest is getting into the fridge for the 10th time in a row. I must go stop him and hear how horrible I am because he'll cry. Damn me! Eh, another joy in the parenting world.

Mama's done

I am just done. Really, done. The hormones this time around are vicious. I woke up happy go lucky and not even an hour later I'm ready for the day to be over and I do not want to talk to a single person. Yup, all that change in an hour. Great isn't? The boys are eating breakfast and I love them dearly but you really don't need to repeat what you want 5 times. I heard you the first time, I'm making it the way you requested.. give me a break before I need time out.

So dear hormones, you can screw off now. No, really, I mean it. I have no use or want for you. You do nothing but create tension and anger which really isn't needed at this point in the game. I personally do not enjoy being upset over trivial and stupid things. Really, I don't. I can figure a better way to spend my day then being annoyed because someone just walked through my living room with shoes on. Well, no, that probably would annoy me not being pregnant. Need a better example.. hm, well, I can see a better way of spending my day then being annoyed over 5 things sitting on my kitchen counter that I didn't put there. See, there's one.

I feel like I have gone pregnant lady crazy. I honestly do. I'm ready for the hormones to even out but I have probably another year of that! Soon baby will be here and then that means you have the whole post partum hormones. I hope I do not deal with PPD again.

I just don't want to feel crazy anymore! Really, is that too hard to ask for body? Is it?!

The boys deserve me sane. Not crying over silly little things or angry that something isn't right. They probably think I'm some lunatic that took over their moms body.

Whoa, Glucose!

This is what Bishop looks like at 32 weeks :). I'm actually 32 weeks and 3 days now. I had my appointment today with my midwife to see how all is going. It was a fairly good appointment. After getting good news today, to go onto hearing Bishop's heartbeat was just the icing to the cake. However nothing in my life can go simple, can it? Haha - nope!

Ah so, I didn't have to use the restroom when we got there so we decided go ahead with our appointment as usual. I brought up my concerns to her about my period cramping and stabbing pain on my left side, right where my c-section scar is. That scared me the most, I was afraid something was going wrong. Thankfully she believes it has to do with his positioning and how the cramping is contributing to that. She stressed water (which i chug) and resting as well as trying to put heat on the area. So either a nice hot bath to soak in the heat or a hot towel with castor oil rubbed on the cramping area. So she had some left over castor oil, when it starts to happen again, i'll try that then a bath.

My BP was good, 128/78, lost a pound or two. I can't remember the exact weight of last appointment. Then, then, I did my urine check. My protein tested negative but holy mother of glucose, that tested between 250-500! I couldn't believe it! So, now we're doing urine checks till saturday twice daily. I also have to check my blood sugar at home and see how that goes. So it'll be interesting. I surely hope it was a fluke! I couldn't believe how fast that turned from yellow to a deep green, just shocked.

So here we stand. I'll do my testing and call her on Saturday like she wants me too. Hopefully everything remains normal and doesn't skyrocket back up. I just want it to be a fluke.

Did you know Bishop weighs as much as a jicama? I have no clue what a jicama is but supposedly that is what he weighs as much aha. I can't wait to meet him. I can't wait to have him at home and to add to our family of boys. I'm very excited. He is a blessing to our lives, just like my other boys. I feel he was given to us during a time we needed him. Gage also cannot wait to have a baby in the house again. He can't wait to help change Bishop's diapers haha. Child has no clue what he just offered himself up for!

xx Marisa

20.5 weeks, where has time gone?

I can't believe we're half way through already. It still seems as if it were yesterday when I got the most faint line I have ever had before. This is the fastest pregnancy of mine yet. It just doesn't seem to be slowing down either! My other two pregnancies they'd start out pretty fast but normally when I hit 12 weeks it stopped and then just dragged. all. the. way. to. my. due. date. Then, after that, i went over so of course that made the whole waiting impatiently thing worse haha.

I had my midwife appointment yesterday and all looks well. I lost weight (a good thing) and his heartrate was 142bpm. I love hearing his heart beat, it makes everything worth while. His movements are so much more noticeable now and I love it. Always one of my favorite things about pregnancy. Speaking of, he is doing it now! We're going along just as we should and will start looking into purchasing our birth kit and when we move, start prepping everything else we will need for our home birth.

I am so excited to have another little baby. I really cannot wait to meet Bishop now. From how this pregnancy started, all those feelings and emotions are gone. I am looking forward so much to having him here, having my 3 boys and loving them all.

The baby center update on where we are at 20 weeks..

How your baby's growing:

Your baby weighs about 10 1/2 ounces now. He's also around 6 1/2 inches long from head to bottom and about 10 inches from head to heel — the length of a banana. (For the first 20 weeks, when a baby's legs are curled up against his torso and hard to measure, measurementsare taken from the top of his head to his bottom — the "crown to rump" measurement. After 20 weeks, he's measured from head to toe.)

He's swallowing more these days, which is good practice for his digestive system. He's also producing meconium, a black, sticky by-product of digestion. This gooey substance will accumulate in his bowels, and you'll see it in his first soiled diaper (some babies pass meconium in the womb or during delivery).

See what your baby looks like this week. (Or see what fraternal twins look like in the womb this week.)

16 weeks and toddler news

So this is what baby looks like during the 16th week of pregnancy! I've always been interested in knowing the size and look of the baby. Even though this is my 3rd pregnancy its still all sorts of fun to look at and read up.

My 2nd midwife appointment was on Tuesday and it went really well. All I know is I love my midwife! She helped deliver D and I knew that I wanted to go back to her when we got pregnant again. I didn't think it would be so soon though, haha. I did my usual; weigh in, test urine and then they took my BP. We went over my 3 day food journal we're all supposed to do between our first and second visits. I mentioned my first appointment my concerns with my weight because I do weigh more than I had wanted to when I became pregnant again. My plan was to lose weight and then we'd try for another baby. However, this baby had other plans! So, I am making big changes during my pregnancy to help myself be healthier and even lose weight. Which I can do but I have to do it in a healthy manner. So, they helped me find good foods and better ways to eat and I am going to take their suggestions and go with them. I am also cutting pop out of my diet. Slowly I am cutting it out and hopefully soon won't be drinking it anymore. Little baby's heartbeat was at 148bpm. The lowest I've had with any of my kids. So I am hoping that the old wives tale is true in this case haha. I love my boys but I need some estrogen to level it out some! I'm surrounded by testosterone, even with pets! S/he is measuring right on track and I cannot wait to get my ultrasound scheduled. I will hopefully get it all set up on Monday when we take D to his doctors appointment. I use the same doctor to set up the scan for me since my midwife doesn't set them up.

D has his 15 month check up on Monday. Hopefully he's doing well and staying on track. I will be bringing up his one bowed leg as it doesn't seem to be changing at all. Only one leg is bowed though so I am still concerned. Not in a freak out mode concern, just a concerned parent about their child's well being. Its very noticeable now and I hope it'll go away on his own and he won't need anything serious to help fix it. He is also talking all over the place now. He says 3 of our 5 pets names. Plus mama, dada/daddy, uh oh, gamma and nana. Oh he also says Bless you (repeats it when said to him) and Thank you. I love how babies talk because they're not the exact words, just their cute little variations of them.

Monkey has been sick the last two days. It doesn't seem to be anything very big bug like however he's been lethargic and just not himself. He has had an on and off temp and we gave him a cool bath. The child has been pumped liquids like its nobodies business. He's had some of an appetite but nothing very big. He's tired about 2 hours before his normal bed time. Today however he seems to be doing much better. So I hope it was just something small and has passed quickly.

Things to get done now while the littlest sleeps and the oldest watches Franklin. I don't have to clean my kitchen however, the husbandman has to do that because he lost a bet, haha!

Enjoy your day :)