It's been awhile

Hi, if you're hear reading this anyways.

It has been awhile since I posted in here, mainly because we have a lot going on that I don't want to openly discuss yet. Soon enough I will, I am sure.

Life has been hectic, busy honestly. Very busy. A lot of  changes are coming our families way and we are excited for them. They will hopefully (we believe anyways) bring what we need, a better and new future.

The boys are wonderful. All 3 are growing daily and they need to slow down a bit!

G is doing wonderful in Kinder and his soccer season ends on Thursday. He has taken quite wonderfully to the sport. Scoring many times during each game. I'm sad to see the season end but we will definitely be doing it again next year and possibly looking into t-ball this spring! He's doing well with sight words and learning to put them together. We are working on reading now as well. His writing is improving much more also.

D is devilish. I mean this child is seriously the rambunctious one of our 3 and he definitely lives up to the nick name trouble. So much energy! However in his escapades he's so sweet, caring and definitely funny. He has his moments with B but you can tell he loves him. He fights with G, but honestly I would probably be worried if we didn't have spats here and there. He is definitely his own and can go from moving so fast to wanting to snuggle. His speech is getting so much better and we are working on counting. So far 3 is as far as he gets and that's perfectly fine!

B is growing so quickly, not sure how I feel about that! It's so neat to see him change into his own little person instead of that whole baby blob thing you get. He is also trying to keep up with the older boys as far as playing and getting their attention. They don't ignore him, they love to help him. He's so goofy as well. When he gets into a mood, its so funny to watch. He goes bouncing off the walls toddler crazy! He is getting over a horrible sinus infection and getting all 4 1st year molars as well, he has just been so pleasant. I love him no less though!

That is our life currently. All 3 boys are great, we are working hard on making changes in our lives. I don't plan on ignoring my blog much longer, promise.

The land of Sickies

Remember how I posted about G bringing home that wonderful head cold the first week of school? Well, the damn thing is still hanging out at our house, however it's causing more problems then we need or that I even want.

The annoying part left, we were all no longer feeling the pressure inside our heads push out and that fun stuff. But then I realized runny noses and the coughing was lingering. I figured hey, it's starting to get cold out and such, its just hanging on. However a few days passed, still there. Then a week, still there. Two then finally we were in our 3rd week and I had enough. I took G to his Dr on Wednesday to deal with it. He had it the longest and it was starting to stop him from sleeping. The constant coughing fits were becoming too much for him to take. Nothing we were trying was working.

So, he prescribed him Amoxicillian. He has an ear infection in one ear on top of it all. He's been on it a bit longer than anyone else.

So, then today I had enough with B's constant fits. Poor guy had absolutely no sleep last night. How can I let my 12mo baby just go through this? I couldn't anymore. I tried everything, nothing was working. He was getting worse. I can't deal with that, I can't see him like this. So I called their Doctor and totally spaced on her telling me last week that she would be gone Wed and Fri (office closed always on Thur) so I had to either take him to Urgent Care or the local Walk-In Clinic. I opted for the walk in. I took D as well because he of course was suffering just as much.

D is pretty much going through the same thing as G is, so that was the same prescription.

B however has double ear infections and then a stinking sinus infection with fatigue. No wonder he's miserable! I knew the fatigue because he just can't sleep. The coughing, it's so constant. J was up last night with him till I got up for the day to get G ready for school. I'm glad to have answers, I'm glad to have the ball rolling to get them all healthy again. B can't have amox like the other two so he was given a different kind. But they've all been started so hopefully we'll see progress very soon! B really needs the sleep and we are to the point wherever he falls asleep is where we leave him till he wakes. Unless it's at night, then he's in his bed.

So that is what is going on here. The land is Sickies. So pitiful, so miserable.

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A lot going on

We currently have a lot going on so please bear with me if there are no posts for awhile. Trying to find balance in our lives.

The first week of School

I had wanted to wait until G completed his whole first week of school before posting about it. But, he kinda did yesterday, not but really. If that makes any sense. Thursday, yesterday actually, he came home and was acting a bit off. We thought maybe he had gotten in trouble again like he did on the first day of school. Which was an understandable reason as to why he got into trouble. He wasn't used to the schedule and that lunch and snacks are at certain times, so constantly asking is going to land you in time out. It did. He wasn't punished at home. I had to have a long talk with him though. Information needs to be dragged out of him. I can tell something is wrong but he won't just let it out. So I talk, he answers, I slowly get it out of him. It works. No mean mom stuff.

Anyways, the 2nd day according to him was much better. They did math and science. They had 3 recess' and even a nap. Then yesterday, he came home. Told me he had a good day. But we could tell something wasn't right. He just wasn't himself. We thought maybe he got into trouble again and didn't want to tell us for fear of getting into trouble. Which wouldn't happen, unless it was something very serious. If it was another issue like being warned and not stopping, then going into time out, punishment was done, no need to carry over at home. A quick talk would be it. But he said he didn't get into trouble and swore up and down. I believe him. Then, he started getting upset (about an hour after being home). Complaining of not being able to swallow because it hurt. J looked in his throat, it was red. He felt warm. So off to Urgent Care. My children have this thing about doing any sort of injury or illness during Dr hours it seems. Anyways, we get there. Red throat, coughing, runny nose, sounding stuffed up. He still complained of swallowing hurting and was wallowing. I cuddled him and tried to make him laugh.

Dr. saw him, confirmed red throat. Did a swab test and we waited about 10 minutes for the results. It came back negative. It was being sent out for a culture but he was thinking it was viral and would just pass through soon. So, off we went. He got worse through the night so I ended up calling off on his first Friday. Didn't want too but I wasn't sending him in case he was contagious. So he knew there was no playing around today, which honestly he didn't look like he could. He's been holding a mild fever all day, very lethargic. We made up a makeshift bed in our room. Bunch of blankets on the floor for cushion and he has 2 himself to cover up with. I have the fan in our window because he's been going between hot and cold. He can also watch movies without being downstairs and getting his little brothers sick. My poor guy. First week of school and he already caught his first bug.

J and I have been chugging Emergen-C like it's going out of style. We know it's evident we'll eventually get sick, but hey, we can at least attempt to hold it off for as long as possible!

So, that's his first technical week. :)

A walking One year old and a Kindergartner

It's so weird right now, so weird. I currently have only two children at home! Two. I'm used to three and right about now I would have two screaming boys at each other's throats and the whole me having to mediate. But not this morning, this morning I woke up at 6 and got my Kindergartner up at 630. Yes, my Kindergartner! He ate breakfast and got dressed, then off to the bus stop we went. It's located at the entrance of our neighborhood and we live in the back, so we drive down. He waited at the bus stop with his new friend and got on the bus without ever looking back. I'm so proud of him, he will do great, I know it. I however am nervous. Mainly because I can't wait to hug him and see how his first day went. Tomorrow we'll repeat the process. 

Then in this whole same week, B turned one and wasn't walking. Then yesterday he decided to start out of the blue! It totally came out of nowhere, not coaxed either. We (me, J, my mom and step-dad) were just hanging out and B stood up, then stood for a minute and took off. Nobody trying to get him to walk to them or anything. All on his own! Then he proceeded to make his walking farther and farther the rest of the day. I can't believe it! We joked he wouldn't walk forever because he was so hesitant. He just needed to get that last nerve and he did :) My baby is walking and my other baby is in school!

D is adjusting so far. He went pee on the potty already, unprompted! I hope with G in school that potty training will become easy and not a hassle. I think be being able to have more focus on just D will bring ease to him. Lets hope for an easy process because I honestly think he's getting even more ready by the day. 

A video of B walking yesterday:

G all set for school with his Mario back pack
and Sonic t-shirt. Oh and a crazy baby brother behind him.

A little break, please?

So today B and I spent a good portion in Urgent Care. Why? Because my sweet little baby has an infection in his finger. Yup, his finger. See I went through an infection with D at the same age, granted two totally different types but still an infection around their 1st birthday. I don't like this.

It looks like it was caused by a small cut or crack in his skin. He doesn't walk yet so he still crawls. We have 2 brothers, 4 cats and 2 dogs. Gunk gets around no matter how much I try and sweep the floors. So, it became infected. He is now on an antibacterial and hopefully it will help. We have to attempt to keep it dry and clean as well as bandaged. So far I have replaced the band-aid like 5 times. Once before we even left urgent care! A 1 year old isn't going to keep it on if he doesn't want it on.

So he is okay, it never once bothered him. He woke up from his nap and I noticed his finger was red. I didn't think anything of it, I figured he's teething he was probably sucking or chewing on it. Then I noticed it was a bit bigger then it should have been. So I called J over to look at it and he said it looked really infected and that there was a puss pocket. Great. So, I packed him up and off to urgent care we went. I don't take lightly to infections. If you know the ordeal with D, then you understand. So yes, even a little finger infection is very very serious to me. Ever since dealing with D's abscess, I have been a wreck when it comes to them. I don't take any sickness lightly. I mean, I am not over zealous or crazy, but I watch it and if it seems to be serious or need attention, I take them to the Dr. But my children have that sense of day because they never do these things on a week day, when their Dr office is open. So I tend to go to Urgent care. Or sometimes the ER.

However, he's okay. He'll be fine and hopefully it goes down. I will be making his 1 year appointment and will have her check it out then.

Going to see if I can't get my sweet baby to bed because this mama is tired!

Open House

Wednesday was our first open house for school. Neither of us knew what to expect but honestly, it wasn't bad at all. D had been at Grandmas for a few hours already (he suckered her into staying when we picked something up from her house before errands) so all we had to do was drop B off at her house. Did our errands first, which involved the store. Had to go home and drop the cold stuff off and I hopped into the shower. Then it was off to my moms to drop off B and we were off from there.

It started at 630 and we live about 10 miles give or take from the school itself. We arrived and headed in, saw on the entry door about the local district's recreational soccer league. Both J and I got an excited look on our faces and headed into the cafeteria/gym. They handed out a bunch of free book so we came home with a boat load it seems. Then we grabbed the registration form for the soccer. I'm not sure who's more excited, G or myself.

After we left the cafeteria, we headed to his classroom and met his teacher. Gathered all the information that she had laid out, filled out a few things that were needed. He started acting distant and with drawn, I asked him what was wrong and he just told me he was hungry. I then knew instantly what was up. He was nervous. I gave him a hug and said everything was going to be okay. That it's perfectly fine and normal to be nervous. But we know he'll do great, its his personality. He's such an outgoing and friendly boy. I don't worry about how he'll handle being at school. But I will comfort him with his nerves.

So only FOUR days to go! I can't believe we're so close already. Open house was good, got all our info, signed him up for soccer and we're ready to start this next chapter in our lives.

B is One!

A whole year has gone by. Very fast, it's still not settling in that my baby, my youngest is now a whole year old. Crazy. For the longest time I swore that child was going to stay in my uterus forever, he finally decided enough was enough and on this date last year, he was finally born at home.

It has been a great day. He woke up at 630 and while it wasn't ideal (I was hoping to get stuff done before anyone woke up, I was up at 615) it was nice to have time with him. Then I started doing dishes and he of course likes to hang out in the dishwasher. So, I put on Despicable Me for him and he sat, amazed at the colors and the minions. He even laughed at a few parts with them. It was adorable :)

He had a great day. Enjoyed his little cupcakes and was gifted a wooden block train, 2 outfits and a pair of pj's from grandma and papa, $25 and a sweet card from nana (great grandma) and a home made knot tie blanket from mama and daddy as well as the big brothers. It was a small birthday gathering, but we had a good time. He kept crawling all over his gift from grandma and papa that the brothers finally stepped in and helped him open it up.

He isn't walking yet but wants to. He does dance in place which is quite cute. But he's so so so close. He's the first of the 3 to not be walking before 1 and you know, I'm okay with that! A little longer of keeping him as a baby, not toddling so he isn't a toddler. Yay +1 there, haha.

Like the same fashion as last year, the weather was the same. Not as humid but just as hot. It's bittersweet. I know we're not done yet, but we are for a few years. So he's our last baby right now. To have him be One is kinda hard to imagine. Silly, yes, but still hard.

He was on the local news also! They do birthdays for the 1st birthday and 10th birthday. He was also the only birthday today! So extra special :)

The above photo was taken a few days ago on a gift from grandma and papa, the ducky aka quack quack chair.

One year ago today..

Just born!

Happy 1st Birthday sweet baby boy. We love you so so much.

Dear 630am

You bite. Yes, there, I said it. You bite. I understand why I have to meet you every morning, well, until tomorrow, but it still doesn't make me like you anymore.

I knew it was coming, I didn't want it to but I knew it was. I really don't like this whole getting up early. The boys thought 8 was good enough, I adjusted to that. Then they let me sleep till 930. Do you know how hard it is to adjust going from that late to 630 and now 6 as of tomorrow? Pretty darn difficult.

B keeps me company, starting tomorrow G will as well. I will see how he does and we may have to adjust bed times along with the early wake up. His current bed time is 830, an hour after D. That gives D a good amount of time to fall asleep without distraction and then the same for Gage.

Yuck. School, you stink. I can't believe though that G starts school a week from today. I think we are all set, I hope so anyways. Tomorrow is open house so we'll get more info and such.

I'm not ready for him to be starting school! I am but I'm not, if that makes sense. He is 100% ready and we have a count down for him on the chalk board.

A venting place

I have decided to create a blog for me to specifically vent, just to say what I want to say, but do it privately. I have moments on here where I just want to let it all out but don't, mainly because I don't want everyone reading. So, I figured my solution to that issue would be to create another blog, set it to where you need an invite to read.

I'm open for people reading if they'll respect my rights to just vent. It won't be totally censored with swearing. I have slip ups and I am working hard on not doing it, but hey, I'm human. However, not everything that is on my mind is meant for everyone specifically to see. I know it's the internet and such but I have moments that I just need to get things off my chest.

If you are interested, please let me know. I want to know who is reading my upsets and hope that they'll have the respect for me to keep what they read on those pages in that blog, there.


Note: If you are on my livejournal, I'll be doing most of that private posting on my new blog if you're interested. I do still plan to use my LJ and want to keep up with those of you who post privately. So please don't delete me off of there.

The Great Birthday Debate

What do you get an almost 1 year old who has a crap load of toys from his brothers? No, honestly, what do you get? We have no idea. I had one but J thought it would be better for Christmas and I agreed. So we're back to square one. We made him a knot tie blanket, Owls. I'm in love with it and I hope he loves it as much as his brothers love theirs.

But as far as a gift, what do we get him? We don't need to get him anything big or fancy. Just something for him. He's sharing everything (even when we ask them to leave his toys alone) and we would like just one thing for him to play with. We know that'll be hard given brothers who think they can have everything but not share, but we want to try.

I'm at a total loss! I'm in denial that he's already turning one, then on top of my denial I have to face it with this whole gift thing.

My baby is NOT turning one and will NOT need a gift. I guess that'll solve the problem haha.

Prepping for School

Its still so strange to be at this part in our lives with our oldest. It's just honestly flat out odd. I swear it was just yesterday we brought him home from the hospital. Sat him on our bed and thought "what now?" Now, he's 5, going on 6 and is just so energetic, smart, brave and handsome. When did my teeny 7lbs 5oz baby become this tall, young, handsome little boy? Who's starting freaking Kindergarten!

I feel totally clueless in this department. I really don't know who to turn to for support. I have friends on forums who have had kids go through kinder and such but nobody local. My mom is here but her youngest is well, me, so it's obviously been years since she has had a baby in Kindergarten.

I'm not ready. I know I have to suck it up and put on a happy face but I'm not ready! Let me stomp my foot for a moment if you don't mind. Why now? Why have the past 5 1/2 years flown by so quickly that he's going to school? I know it'll do wonders for him. He's so social and friendly, he is excited to learn. School will be a good thing for him. But is it selfish of me that I don't want to let go of him? I want to keep him home with me.

I could home school but in all honesty as much as I would love to, I know he wouldn't do well with it. I wouldn't do well with it. I think he'll learn better when it isn't me trying to teach him. I have done well so far. He can say and write out his ABC's, he can spell his own name, he can recite our home address and my cell number. He's a smart cookie and absorbs knowledge like it's nothing, but, having him gone for so long? I'm not sure how I'll adjust. I will, I know I will.

I don't worry about him. I know him and he is going to do wonderful. He will make tons of friends and do so well. I do hope that he listens, he can be a little problematic in that department. With routine and some stern voices, I know he'll be fine. He just gets so excited and wants to do so many things, that's where it falters. I know he'll do fine. He's always been the one who I knew would be just fine without me when it came to school.

He's ready and so excited, I just need to find how to get to that same place.

Six years of Wedded bliss, aka, washing his underwear.

Six years ago yesterday I married my best friend. The journey there was fast and beyond that it has had it's major up and downs. I however would never change it for anything. He is my soul mate, the one, my best friend, you know, all that cheesy stuff. But he is who I am supposed to have my ups and my downs with. He is who I am supposed to have a family with. He is who I am supposed to share my feelings with.

We have been together almost seven years, now married six. Most people probably thought we'd be divorced before our first anniversary. If you were one, bite me! Marriage is hard. Very hard and if anyone tells you otherwise they're lying or in major denial. He pushes all the wrong buttons, he knows how to make my knees shake. He can place his hand on my shoulder and let me know everything will be okay.

We aren't perfect and I don't claim to be and never will. I have learned you really need to speak your feelings. Holding them in will honestly just make it so much worse. However after six years, I still do it. I just have my moments. It pisses him off but he does the same thing. We're human. We argue but we make up, move past it. If we can't have disagreements, we're living in a fantasy.

In those Six years of marriage we have had three beautiful sons. I know most people do the math from when we were married, together and had our oldest. The answer to your question is yes. However, he was not the reason for the marriage. He was an added perk. Our three boys mean so much to us. We are growing with them, learning from them and loving them.

He has taught me how to be less selfish (I would be lying if I said I wasn't selfish at all. I have my moments), he has taught me how to love and feel beautiful/acceptable. He shows me he loves me, cares about me. He works hard for us. He does his best and beyond. Without him, I wouldn't be complete. I wouldn't have my 3 beautiful boys, I wouldn't have my best friend. I wouldn't have my partner, my Jase. I am my own, but he adds so much to me. Our marriage isn't perfect but it is a very good one.

Here are to six more years and then 50 more on top of that. He stole my heart and then split it with my boys.

I love at the end of the day, my hand fits perfectly into his. <3

Brothers

Some photos of my boys as of recent that have really melted my heart. They are all getting so big and have started to bond which I love. Seeing them play together nicely and honestly, even when they fight I am happy to see them grow together. These are some recent photos that have just made my day.

It's all apart of Growing up.

G lost his first tooth yesterday! He had two loose and the bottom one is the one that bit the dust first. We thought for sure he'd lose the top left one first but nope, the bottom left came looser and last night while at my moms watching a Super Mario DVD it popped out.

I was sitting next to him in another chair and he jumped up and yelled "It fell out, it fell out!" then started his typical 5 year old happy dance. Came over to me and plopped that tooth right in my hand an went "SEEE! It fell OUT!"

I was so happy for him, mainly because I was very afraid on how he'd react. He doesn't like blood. He knocked hit much more loose the other day and freaked out. Didn't do well with it at all. I calmed him down and he then became very sensitive to the tooth, by that, I mean he was afraid to eat basically. I convinced him he'd be fine. It's all the process of losing a tooth and this being his first, his fears were very understandable. We wanted him to take it in stride and not force anything. When it falls out, it falls out basically. That's exactly what happened and he did great. Didn't even freak when he saw the blood in his spit. I'm so proud of him! Soon his other tooth will become much more loose and he'll have 2 gone. He's growing far too fast. A missing tooth, starting kinder and will soon be 6. Where did my biggest baby go?!

Oh and he was given $5 from Grandma and Papa for losing his 1st tooth (and was told that was for the first one only haha) and then the Tooth Fairy (he believes) brought him as he put it "Two whole one dollars!"

So proud of you buddy!

Starting to Wonder

I know we aren't the only ones who are struggling and honestly I'm not open about it because, why should I have to be? We have been doing all we can to get ahead yet we seem to keep falling back. When is our break? Two years in a few months, that's how long we've been struggling and pushing through. Going up and down the stupid roller coaster begging and pleading to get off of it. Yet, that life handler, the one who holds the key to shutting the machine off is refusing. One step forward, five steps back. That's what it feels like anyways. The worlds weight is getting slightly heavy.

When is our break? It's becoming so soul crushing to know that it's not getting better, it's in fact getting worse. Having any hope anymore just doesn't exist. I'm beyond stressed, we are trying to figure everything out to survive and yet we're falling short. I feel like we're failing. We could sit here and do nothing, but we're trying.

I have become very thankful for certain people in my life. They have been there to listen to me at my worst, support me no matter what and just be a wonderful shoulder to lean on. Our families have been wonderful, so supportive in trying to help us the best that they can but they also have things going on with them.

I just feel like a burden when talking about my life. Why would anyone honestly want to listen to it? We are doing our best, we are exhausting all we can to figure out what to do on our next try. I just don't know anymore. How many times can someone be picked up then knocked right back down again?

Please don't tell me life will get better. It honestly does not help. It may get better but unless that happens in the next 15 minutes, it means diddly squat to me. I can't take it anymore.

Faith, that word means joke to me now.

No book review yet

I'm not done yet with the book. Close, but not done. Once I'm done we are going to start putting our plan into action. One thing we have done is started to change the discipline. We've read that part of the book, both of us and I have it written down as a quick go to guide as well as having it marked off in the book. I have noticed breaking my discipline habits are going to be hard but I have done good so far. That is important as well. So, it hasn't been easy but it's worked when we have been 100% successful in following her guidelines. Jason has been doing a great job as well!

So, tonight I plan on finishing the book and then we both will sit down at the dining table and make out our rules and schedule. This honestly comes at a perfect time because Gage starts school next month and I planned on starting a new schedule/routine to get us all ready for him to go. So this works out great on timing. I can work it out to fit the school routine.

That is where we are right now. I am going to try and do a detailed review of each section and such. So far I really do recommend this book if you are in a similar situation as us. Where nothing seems to be working, you are getting way too angry/frustrated and its lashing out. They laugh at you when you try to discipline. We were at the end of our rope and so far it is working. I have high hopes. We just need to do our part and stick to it, not give in.

Off to finish the book and then start our strategy!

A change of plans

When we became parents we honestly had no clue what we were doing. We were young and in love, we loved our first born. He was our easiest baby and toddler. He's definitely proven at times to be a stickler in the whole 5 year old range. However, he's definitely smart and knows what he wants.

Dane is our most difficult. Mainly we were spoiled with the first child that we yes, did expect the same thing to happen again. Who doesn't dream to have two easy going, easy teething, crawling, walking, talking, happy go lucky babies twice? Who doesn't dream to have a toddler who is content to play and not get into cabinets or play with cords? Yes, we had our moments with Gage. He did give us some run for our money but mainly, he was such a laid back child. The big D however is loud, rambunctious, into every. single. thing. possible. He has his volume set to extremely screeching loud. I know a good portion of it is vying for our attention because well, he has an older brother to compete with and a younger brother. They all get their own time and attention from us but what 2.5 year old doesn't want more? Listening, the word is next to Joke in Dane's dictionary.

Bishop, well he's still only a baby. He does what most babies do. Crawls everywhere, is standing up, pulling up on furniture and starting to brave it and standing on his own. He tests the waters. Mainly with climbing the stairs. He'll get to the 2nd stair and then look back at you and smile. That means he's going to bolt so telling him no is pointless to him.

However lately things have been.. difficult. Jason and I have actually sat down and discussed how we're lost, we're both tired of the same routine and nothing is happening or getting better. We figured it out, it's us. We need a change and we are making that change.

We have seen the show Supernanny. Yeah, I know, what parent honestly turns to a TV show? Well after trying and trying and nothing working, we have. Not really the TV show but the nanny herself. Borders is sadly closing (but it worked in my favor) and I bought a book by Jo Frost called How To Get The Best Of Your Children. 

So, I am working on reading it. We are going to be serious about this. We want to be good parents and right now we feel like we are both failing. Something has to change, we do give in more then we should and it is starting to back fire on us. If we can find a way to be consistant and set, if we can find a way to make good on our word better then we have and this book can help us? Great.

I will review it when I am done. So far I am liking it. I have had to jump around a bit to find specific things that we are dealing with. Such as bed time, but I have been reading straight through and taking notes. We will be putting rules on our fridge and both abiding by them and sticking with them. We will also be putting our family time table up, becoming talking clocks. I'll explain it when I review it :)

Lets hope it works! Its up to us, but getting ideas and steps on what to do is what we need the most.

It all just sucks.

Not positive what has been up with me lately, kinda have fallen into a funk honestly. Life is well, life. Stressful, no real breaks from anything to make it go away but it's there. A constant reminder that things are still tough, they are not getting any better either. We try and try yet continue to fall flat on our faces. It's tiring, very tiring.

I need to get back into the habit. Maybe I'll make another goal for August. Same as I did for June. One post at least for every day of the month, I did damn good with that. I think I will. I want to be back in the habit!

Three boys, 10 months old

It recently hit me that each boy has had longer hair at this age, 10 months. I know it sounds silly but it hit me when someone made a comment about how Bishop has a lot of hair. It's true he does. He has more then either Dane or Gage had at 10 months old but I believe Dane also had more then Gage at 10 months old. So, lets compare 10 months for each boy!

Gage at 10 months

Dane at 10 months

Bishop at 10 months

All I know is I have 3 of the most handsome men on this planet!

Heat wave from hell

Ugh, I have had moments the past few days where I just wanted snow. Yes, snow. I hate snow, I hate living in this state for the fact that it does snow but when the temps are over 100*, yeah you bet your butt I want it to snow! We can't win during weather I suppose. I know we weren't the only ones dealing with ridiculous temps.

I'm not quite sure if the boys remember what the outside looks like. It has just been far too hot to even dare go outside long enough to play. I feel bad because they want to but I don't want crispy dehydrated boys. So we have stayed inside, in the air where we can watch movies, play games, color and such. Oh and drive me crazy because it wouldn't be a normal day if they didn't succeed in that.

It's bad when you start to consider mid 80's cooler temps. True, but sad. So hopefully this week when we get past the days they are calling for storms, we will be able to get back outside and play. Charge up the boys tractor and power wheel.

Tomorrow the rain is supposed to start. Jason has it off so hopefully we can have a decent family day. Not sure what you can do when you have no money but maybe we can get our butts kicked at Chutes and Ladders by the big guy.

Good night!

Little Fishy

Today was hot as hell, there is honestly just no other way to explain it. At one point it said it was 95 degrees out with the heat index at 103. Totally believable. Well, my mom has one of those set up yourself type pools and so we decided to go over for a swim.

Gage was his usual fishy type and Dane at first was very iffy. He got in and then wanted right back out. So we put Bishop in one of the baby floats and he had a ball. He loves the tub, he loves to splash and just play and thats exactly what he did. He kept soaking my mom (well as much as you can when someone is already in a pool) and kicking his little chunk legs. I got a few photos on my phone because the battery to my camera was dead and I didn't think to charge it.

So here are a few.

Whoa Baby

A lot of babies have been born lately as well as pregnancy announcements. Then on top of it there are a few who are ready to pop any minute. So it's definitely been hitting me. The fevah, the baby fevah. More cow bell please. I love my babies and I am just having a very hard time grasping at the thought that my baby baby is going to be 1.

Tonight at dinner Jason and I were talking. Bishop has become so vocal lately, as well as finding new things he can do. Such as waving, blowing his tongue, spitting. Yes he has found out how to blow spit. Oh the joy. But he's doing so much. He's so fast, he is climbing the stinking stairs! We shouldn't be at this place yet, I feel like he should still be immobile, small and squishy. He's so fun and fast. But anyways, we were talking about how I want to stop time. I'm not ready to let my baby turn one because then he'll be ONE. On top of that I also have to deal with my oldest baby starting school. Really? Two of these things in the same week? Yeah, bring on the baby fever.

Don't worry, no more babies for us for awhile. Couple of years honestly. We do want more but this isn't the time and neither of us are ready. But I'm having one of those days and today is it. Plus, I'm not ready to do the whole labor thing again but I can't wait for our 3rd home birth!

Meet Lux

Sorry for an absence but my in-laws were here from Friday till Monday and then we kinda just had a laze-about week. On Monday we went and got a new kitten from a coworker of Jason's. We have adopted 2 out of the 3 of our cats (one was given to me as a gift) so it's been a long time since we have had a kitten.

She is 9 weeks old, well I believe 10 now. She is all black and adorable. It took us forever to find a name for her. Name after name after name and we finally settled on, Lux. Luxy for the cute nickname.

Two out of our 3 cats don't mind her, one actually, Darwin, has started to play with her. He is the one we figured might be the most annoyed but since he has mellowed it doesn't seem to be a problem. Our newest (Well really with us 2 years now) Itty Bitty Kitty, she is mad. Just plain old mad and we knew it was coming. She'll come around. The oldest of the 3, fat cat aka pumpkin just doesn't care. He sniffed but then went and laid down in one of his usual fat kitty cat perches.

She has become boss of the 90lb Chocolate lab of ours named Gannon. Our Shih-tzu hasn't been so nice. He seems to be the one who wants to go after her the most. So we're keeping Grimm and Lux apart as much as possible until she gets bigger. Just to make her feel more comfortable and not fear the dogs and so Grimm learns we don't chase cats.

Other then that, shes adjusted great. Has several hiding spots. Which is pretty easy for an all black small cat. We have a hard time finding her most of the time. Like right now, she's hiding and I can't find her. I know she'll come out on her own.

But, that's lux. I will update tomorrow. I need to get back into the groove! Being off for the week has definitely thrown me for a loop.

More fluffy mail!

I got my last 8 diapers in the mail yesterday. KaWaii's. Square and round tabs. Bishop can get the velcro off now haha.

Well I'm a bad blogger

I honestly believe that nobody reads this thing but I feel the need to update everyday now. Probably because of my June goal. Anyways, the last two days have been busy around here. Lots of trying to get things in order for my in-laws visit. Also trying to catch up on the laundry from when I sorted everything and keeping up with basic needs laundry. I'm over laundry at the moment! Yet I'm still doing it. I have diapers to prep as well.

Lots to do today! Just basically the final pick ups of making sure it doesn't look like a total disaster. Or you know like the children tornados struck again. We are used to talking all over toys and random objects they have pulled out but we try our best to make sure others don't have to. My house isn't perfect but if you don't live with children anymore we try to make sure you're not tripping over the toys we usually are.

With that said, I best get to getting somethings done. Not much is left but I want to do it now before the heat hits.

Oh what a day

I'm not going to make a long post as I am tired and ready for bed. Today was a long day, first waiting for a call, call happened and then we headed to the Cherry Fest with my mom and step-dad. It was a good day all in all. Photos to come tomorrow!

Glory Glory

Happy 4th of July!

Wanted to wish you all a wonderful fourth of July. Happy Birthday America! 

Today hasn't been the same. Basically just a regular Monday for us. Jason had to work last night and again tonight so we've gone about our normal routine. The boys and I sat outside for a few watching the fireworks but started getting eaten alive by mosquitoes. So we came inside. They are now in bed and I am watching Super Troopers while waiting for Jason to call. Its just not the same without him home. This is our first year together out of our 6 years total that he wasn't home for the 4th. Tomorrow we will light some fireworks off and then Saturday we will go downtown to watch the end of the Cherry Fest fireworks with his parents. It should be fun. I think the boys will have a blast. I'm going to head off, goodnight!

Hope everyone was safe and smart but also had a great time.

Photos

Well, Hello Summer

Summer finally decided to show up. The teasing up 80 degree weather and then back to low 60's was getting quite old. I finally decided today to pack up our winter stuff (ie clothing) and just clear up some space. It took me a good hour to go through our bedroom plus the older boys. Bishop's room will be the quickest so I didn't bother with it today. I was sweating my bum off by the time I was done. It was roasting!

Now I have tons of laundry to catch up on and get it sorted and put away. My mission for tomorrow along with cleaning the kitchen. IL's visit this weekend so got lots to do! Cherry fest this week as well :)

A new look.. or not.

I meant to mess around and try to decide on a new look for my blog but I kinda fudged up and made it back to an old template. I didn't save my other one. Oh well, I guess I'll leave it like this until I can work on getting my other one back up or just stick with this until I figure out a new one.

Figures, I messed it up. I don't like it plain like this so I guess when Jason goes to work tonight I will work on it. I also have a habit of wanting to tag this challenges haha. That'll be a hard one to break!

Seems like a storm is rolling in. The wind has picked up and the clouds are rolling over. The boys are being very loud which is starting to aggravate me. After asking several times to be quiet they still have yet to listen. I just had to threaten grounding. Which Gage has learned is not fun as the word sounds.

Ugh, off to make a list of things that need to be done this coming week. Lots to do, it'll work better being able to cross them off one by one. However I need to find motivation to do any of it..

I made it! The last day of June.

I am quite proud of myself honestly. I set a goal for myself and I achieved it. I wanted to write in here at least once a day for the whole month of June and I did it. Today is June 30th and this is my 30th post! This month hasn't been easy to do either. Considering our Dell crashed in late May and then we had the old Compaq set up and that took a dive on us. So that left us with no computer. In turn I had already started my blogging challenge and was determined to keep writing. So, what did I end up doing? I used my Evo. Even though it was hard to do, the posts were very short I managed. I did it.

So I am proud of myself. I also managed to almost complete my photo challenge (I need to do todays and get them posted) but this was the big one. I believe I have finally created a good habit as well. I am not to the point where I need to make sure something is written in here, even if its just a photo with a caption or two to three sentences. It's something.

I would go weeks on end without updating here and I don't really know why. I know hardly anyone reads this (if any) that I don't link back to. But it's come down to it that I felt the need to do it for myself. Silly? Probably, but I'm happy with the outcome.

Tomorrow is July 1st. JULY! I can't believe that July is here. Tomorrow I will also have a 10 month old. The year is flying by. My boys are growing into wonderful little gentlemen and amaze me every day with something new.

So, here for my 30th post on the 30th day of June, I will just say this. I'll write tomorrow so "see" you then :)

Wordless Wednesday: Fluff Butt

Oh how I heart cloth diapering!

We started cloth diapering when we were preparing to have Dane. I set up a decent sized stash and then for some reason after a couple of months we just kinda quit. I don't honestly know why. Anyways, we were fine financially and it just didn't bother us. Then, things took a turn for the worse. Dane became sick and we spent a week 2 1/2 hours away from home in a hospital. He had a deep abscess on his neck. During this time things went south at my husbands employer but I honestly am not going to get into that. We did nothing wrong, he did nothing wrong. We had a sick child and were far away from home. Not to get upset about it, it put us in a very difficult spot and since then we have not been the same. Oh this was back in Dec of 09. We have struggled since then but have learned a lot about ourselves.

Then we found out we were pregnant with Bishop. This honestly came at such a hard time. I couldn't have wanted him more though. Despite what we were going through, this baby to us was meant to be and here he is. This proposed a very difficult situation to us. My husband was working but it wasn't guaranteed. By the time Bishop was born, things were fizzling out, the guy who I have a tendency to call the douche really started to flake. We didn't want to be associated with him, we wanted to separate ourselves from him and just move on. My husband got a new job, he loves his job and while we are still struggling to pick up the pieces that fell off the truck this past year and a half, we're doing it.

Then in January we decided to go back to cloth diapering. We have two kids in diapers and the cost was becoming insane to buy different sizes pretty much every single week. I brought it back up and he wasn't sold at first but said fine. So I ordered a bunch of new ones and we were set. We had the ones from Dane but quickly realized I didn't have many size assortments. Our whole stash now minus like 8 diapers (that I just replaced) are OS, one size. They will fit both boys. That is what I need! As addicting as cloth diapering is, I can't go all crazy on spending like I would love to. We're doing it to save money, be practical.

Soo this brings me to my reason of posting this! Today I got my 1st two new diapers :D Yes, the giddy in me is coming out. I am expecting 10 total, 8 from another shipment but that won't arrive till next week. I heart heart heart fluffy mail. My husband thinks I'm crazy but what does he know? I am trying GoGreen Pocket Diapers for the first time. I ordered the Fuzzy Green Stars and Moo Champ. I admit, I just wanted a cow print diaper haha. I love prints but because of cost most of the time, I don't buy them. Solids are what fill 99% of our stash. Seriously.

The next batch that I am waiting for and what most of our stash is consisted of are KaWaii pocket diapers. I really enjoy pockets mainly because I can control the absorbency and they simple enough for my husband, mom or anyone else can use on the boys.

So yay, I can't wait for the rest. Then we are set. For awhile anyways ;)

Moo Champ & Fuzzy Green Stars

Heavy Heart

It's hard to be happy right now. A mom on a parenting forum I belong to lost her daughter yesterday. She passed away from a severe head injury from a simple every day fall that all babies do. She was the same age as Bishop. It's hard to grasp. I never personally knew her or her mom but I have "known" them for 3 years now seeing as Dane is the same age as her twin daughters as well. I know most people find the online friendships silly so think what you want, the loss of a child of any age can hit anyone hard. This one hit me hard.

Seeing my baby reminds me of her. Seeing him do the same things she was probably doing. It makes me sad that her mama is grieving when she should be enjoying her. It's not fair, not fair at all. I'm not religious but it makes me question so many things. How can this happen to such an innocent little life? A life, a baby, a sweet precious baby who had so many years to live. How could this happen? I know it's the real world and life isn't fair. Before becoming a parent my feelings weren't so there. They were aware but knowing the fears that a mother experiences daily, knowing that this was such a freak accident, it doesn't make it any better. Its just hard to grasp. As a parent you worry about so many things but these learning to stand falls are so common. Yes they fall and bump their heads, but they come out okay. Not this time. She should be here. It just isn't fair.

Her mom is holding it up so well, well, to us anyways. I can't imagine the pain and sorrow she is experiencing. My heart will forever be with her, my thoughts will never forget that sweet sweet baby. Life, it's so precious. We often take it for granted. In light of the past couple of months my eyes have been opened up to realizing that we shouldn't take the small stuff for granted. Our babies are so precious no matter their age. They're our babies.

Forever our babies.

Hold them close

Your children, babies, hold them close and don't let go. I really have no words right now. My heart is just breaking for a family and their little Elli..

They're amazing little people

Today as I was switching out laundry I had Dane in there with me. He's become my little "mama I wanna help!" guy. As he was helping me sort and put towels into the washer after we pulled out the diapers he was talking to me. I mean, not toddler jibberish but actual talking. He has this sweet little voice and  once I stopped paying attention to the laundry and listened to him he was actually carrying on a conversation. He was telling me about his toy car that he had with him. The wheels and the color. How it goes fast. It then dawned on me how well his sentences were and how fast his vocabulary just seemed to sneak up on me. I listened to him and agreed his car could go fast and fast as well as it had lots of wheels. He then wanted to see the washer fill up and as he said "mama, i see, i see!" 

I have always known his vocab jumped big time once we finally broke him of his bink. But I guess I never realized how big it had grown. Looking back I tried to remember how Gage's vocab was at 2 and a half. Now, I know not all children are the same and boy do my kids live to that standard. They are definitely their own people but I was looking for the common in all children of the age group, the basic level. I have a video of Gage around the same age and he was chatting to himself. Looking at it I can't remember him having this big of sentence structure or maybe it's just the video. Gage spoke wonderfully at this age. Maybe it's because I was just taken back on how well Dane has grown in less then a year? Or how he's just really catching on to things around him.

I cut his hair today and realized as well he often refers to himself in the 3rd person. I find it quite adorable. Don't take any of this as I don't pay attention to what my  kids say, I do. It just seemed to be one of those days where I went back and said "Whoa! There is a lot more then I initially thought!" Children are amazing creatures like that. Anyways, back to the hair cut story. As I was prepping his hair, getting it combed so we didn't have snags he kept insisting he sit. Or as he said "Mama, Dane sit. No standing, it hurts." I convinced him to stand though as it made it much easier to get his hair cut properly. Sneaky mama I am. He just wanted to sit and be tricky. He comes by it honestly haha. As I was cutting the hair off he became very concerned. He saw the hair fall and repeated "Dane's hair! Look mama, Dane's hair!" and I thought the cutest one was when it landed on his tush and he told me. "Hair is on Dane's butt mama! Get it off!"  He then went into his silly racing mode where he goes from the entry way to the kitchen, back and forth, back and forth.

He's growing up. We are nearing 3. I was looking at him and remembering when he was Bishop's age. How did we get to almost 3 already?! Then on top of that, I was having more thoughts about how I am going to have a Kindergartner this fall. Time seriously does fly by. Gage was Dane's age when I was pregnant with Dane. How can he already be 5 and going to school this fall? How can we be there already? How can Bishop already be testing the boundaries of standing and trying to crawl by using all four's instead of using his hands and knees. How are they growing up so fast? I don't know but they're doing it. They're amazing little people. They bring the biggest smiles to my face every day, even when they're such goobers. Believe me, they can be big goobers. They are my goobers though. They are my bug loving, booger eating, fart joking, sweet, snuggling baby boys. All 3 of them. They'll forever be my baby boys.

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living
my baby you'll be.

Robert Munsch's "Love you Forever" our favorite book.

A Beautiful Sky

The only time today the sun came out, just as it started to set.

Clapping Baby

I honestly have a lot I could say, I just don't want to. So I will leave you with a little video of Bishop clapping. Jason helps him a little bit but he has definitely gotten the hang of clapping on his own. Sweet babies :)

The video is a few days old so he has mastered clapping without help now.

Swelling and ring cutting

My finger swelled badly today and this was the look of it around my wedding and engagement rings. It became so bad that I actually had to cut them off :( which yes, does make me sad. I feel so naked without them.

They are currently sitting in a safe place in hopes that I can save them. I can probably have my engagement ring saved but not my wedding ring. That one had to really be cut. It sucks but I would hate to see what would have happened had I left them on. Its definitely bruised, red and still swollen. Icing it hasn't taken it down at all. I hate you weather. Hate you.

We talked about possibly getting tattooed bands. I want roman numerals of our wedding date. Keep your opinions to yourself about this one please. I do plan on replacing both rings when possible as well. I hate not having them on me but nothing I can do about it right now.

This is the before photo and here are the afters. I'm about to go head to bed and wait for Jason to call from break . Tomorrow I am selling my lens! Yes, thank you thank you thank you. Much needed. I can buy the diapers we need to replace (I didn't think about this very well when we bought these diapers in the first place almost 3 years ago). Chunks McGee is definitely growing. OS dipes it is for us.

Goodnight! I leave you with the angry finger.

My Night from Hell

Most nights like that would normally revolve around children yet last night didn't. Oh last night sucked big time. I mean, Bishop had a hard time sleeping at first so I brought him into bed with me. Nothing difficult. No fighting to go to sleep or anything. So after I fell asleep about an hour and a half later I wake up to gagging on stomach acid. This happens to me a lot. Jason was at work so instead of calling for him I got up to go get some milk. However in the process of getting up and stretching, I got a horrible charlie horse. So here I am, gagging/choking/coughing on stomach acid and my leg seizes up. To the point I can't rub the knot out, I have to actually stand up and attempt to stand on it. Which hurt so badly.

I manage to stand up, get some weight onto the leg and slowly make my way downstairs. Without trying to wake a single child up. That was hard because I wanted to scream and cry. Get downstairs, drink two small glasses of milk (and if you know me, I don't do dairy very well) but it was the only thing that helps when this happens and then head back to bed.

I move Bishop into his bed because clearly if me going through those two things didn't budge him, he was fine to sleep back in his bed. I figured it would be for the best with the way my night seemed to be going haha. So back to sleep I went. Woke up around 7am and my body decided to hate me yet again. I woke up to having a mild gallbladder attack. I won't go into details, lets just say me and the bathroom became best friends till around 10am. My back is still sore from my attack. My throat is killing me as is my right leg.

I'm just all sorts of fun today aren't I?

hellooo

Quick post, long day today and I am tired. Bishop is having a rough night so he's laying in bed with me, hence why this is quick. I hope to move Jim to his he'd in a few.

Goodnight.

Fathers Day

Happy Fathers Day!

Jason, you are by far an amazing father and wonderful husband. You work so hard for us, do so much for us, you mean everything to us. We love you dearly.

Holding Gage at a few hours old.

Holding Dane for the first time.

And now I can add Bishop! Holding Bish for the first time :)

Happy Fathers Day, we love you so much.

Please, go to sleep!

Tonight was one of those nights. The littlest has already been having sleeping issues with his teeth bothering him. But the older two for some reason decided for tonight to be a super late night. Maybe because they were in trouble and went to bed a bit earlier then usual. Not much but still. 11pm rolled around, mind you they normally would have been asleep for 3 and 2 1/2 hours by then but nope. Gage comes out, proclaiming a bad dream. Don't think I'm a bad mom for not believing this. This has become a nightly thing for the past couple of months. Every night there is a bad dream. I don't discount it every time but times like tonight, I do. It was quite obvious he hadn't been to sleep. The laughing really gave it away. It was his attempt to get out of going to bed or to either to sleep in our bedroom. Neither was going to happen. He finally settled and went to bed. Dane was up as well so I am hoping to get to sleep in some tomorrow. I am not crossing any fingers though.

So, since I hear nothing at the moment. It is 11:28pm, I am going to head to bed. I try to be in bed before midnight and so far, I'm on track. A little late but still on track. Goodnight if you're reading.

An early night

I was going to sit here and post a long entry but honestly right now, I just don't have it in me. It's been a long tiring day that carried on a horrid headache. Seriously this headache came on from me cracking my neck and it stayed for a good four hours. So my mood is meh, I'm tired, the boys are all sleeping.

Tomorrow is a lazy day. Jason is at work tonight so he'll be sleeping till around 1pm. The boys have already chosen their morning mellow out movie, Gnomeo and Juliet. So we'll be doing that. I will get some laundry put away and probably just hang out at home. I do have to get my photos on to my external mac drive though so I can finally empty out my entire memory card.

Another day, another post. Goodnight.

A short one tonight. Tomorrow we are going to a playgroup at a local park downtown. I'm very nervous and anxious. I am sure I'll be fine once there but it's the whole convincing myself to actually go thing that gets me. I best be off to bed, have a few things to do in the morning before we head out. I'm sure I'll be running like a chicken with its head cut off attempting to get the four of us out of the door. Wish us luck!

Wordless Wednesday: A post is a post

Chubbo Bubbo

Today was Bishop's 9 month well baby check up. I took a poll on my facebook to see what people thought he weighed just based off my profile photo. Two people guessed correct. Bishop is 21lbs, he is in the 50th percentile for his weight and he is 28" long and in the 50th for that as well. His curve ball just blew up recently. Thank goodness! She is very happy with his progress and how great he's doing. She said everything sounded great and is happy with his progress on milestones and weight.

Dane has been super clingy today. Very mama oriented. Which is great but definitely odd. He's not normally like that. I will take the snuggles that I can get so I won't complain. He wasn't acting any different feeling wise just has been attached to my hip pretty much. We watched Booty and the Beast or since he just directly asks for Beast most of the time. Followed by Pinocchio. Dane went down for a nap and Gage wanted to watch Pinocchio again so we did. I don't get my kids and their wanting to watch several movies at least twice a day haha.

Weather was beautiful! Love this weather and temp. Loving being able to have my windows open and have a decent cool breeze go through. Heart it.

Well, going to go cuddle up with the injured husband. Goodnight!

Photo blog is updated as well.

I never thought I'd be so happy to see Window's installing..

Never in my life would I have ever thought to be so happy to see Window's downloading. My heart forever belongs to Apple. We couldn't get the old desktop to work. Jason tried many different things but it wouldn't go. This one technically is two different computers put into one. We had a disc from our old laptop for Window's Vista but combined the computer didn't have enough RAM memory to support it. We bought one but it didn't fit. A wonderful wonderful friend sent us extra RAM she had and thankfully, it work! So finally instead of typing from my Evo, I am using our desktop. While not an Apple, this thing will do just fine for now. Giggity giggity. I am a happy camper.

Today was my moms birthday so, Happy Birthday Mom! We went over there and had a delicious steak dinner. Cake and ice cream. Followed by a game of Euchre. I hope she had a good birthday. The boys weren't listening that well and Bishop fought sleep. But all in all it was a decent day there.

The guy came to look at the Quad. Figured that it started for Jason but didn't start for the guy. It works, it sat in the garage all winter un touched. The battery needs more charging that's all. Hopefully he'll come back tomorrow and if not I'll contact the next guy who wanted to see it.

My lovely husband wrenched his back while working with the quad today. He didn't have his footing right while lifting and hurt his back. He went to Urgent Care after we got home from my moms and just called me. He pinched a nerve as well as tore a muscle. Poor guy. He's on weight restrictions and can't lift more then 20lbs for two weeks. So hopefully he will be okay at work with his job. He lifts heavy things but he said if he stays away from certain areas he should be good.

That's it for today. My camera is still importing photos. Oh yay, I get to finally start to edit photos again! This makes me happy haha.

Goodnight.

Different day, Same Devlin

Today was finally a sunny and slightly warmer day. Quite over the rain we had lately, as well as the super chilly temps. Hopefully it stays this way and gradually becomes warmer.

Tomorrow someone is coming to look at the quad we are selling. Fingers crossed it goes through. I am still trying to sell my lens. That would buy us the new computer tower. Some interest but no final takers. I wish something would happen.

Ah but its time to head off. This was definitely an up and down day.


Ps, check out Just Go With It ;) my title will make sense then.

Truckin' along

I'm actually doing pretty good in this whole challenge thing and that makes me happy. Even though I feel like they're short it's still something. I'm at this post now Eleven days in, which is great! This is the most in one month I have written since I started blogging.

Not having the computer has become less annoying, to a degree. I have wanted to post my blogs easier and do our bill stuff but it's not possible right now. But I am loving the snuggles in the morning the boys and I have. Every morning they have breakfast and we curl up to watch a movie. Sometimes two. It's become a fun little thing for us. Even if Tangled is requested more then once. I will take it.

I'm going to get going though. I do want to share a photo of Bishop from this morning. He was eating a snack after he woke up from his nap, he was so happy. You can even see two little teefs in there!

Cold and Dreary

Another short one, I apologize. I am still getting my posts in so that is all that matters. Today was one of those days. You know the dark gloomy constant drizzle and chilly to boot. Yup, that kind of day. We Hung around insurance huddled up on the couch watching movies. It was a decent day for the most part.

I am currently holding an adorable 9 month old who's having falling to sleep issues so I am going to sign off in hopes I can transport him. Goodnight!

Well looky, its a computer!

Finally, I am on a computer. Although it's not mine it's still a computer haha. I am still going to have to keep this short as I am trying to finish up doing some things on craigslist for my mom and myself.

This whole computer situation has been seriously annoying and stressful. I didn't really think it would be such a pain as it has been. We are still trying to fix up our old desk top, we need a new ram in order to run vista. That has become a pain in attempting to get the right one. I'm still selling my sigma lens in hopes of buying a new tower. We have everything else for a computer, the tower right now is all we need.

Gages two kinder days went great. He loved it and can't wait to officially start in fall. He worked on the letter A the first day and the letter B the second day. He made a new friend named Mitchell and loved to ride the bus. I didn't get great photos but will do so when he starts in September. I still can't believe we're at this stage! A grade schooler, crazy.

But sorry to cut this short, day nine is completed. So glad I am keeping up on this! I want to thank Sarah for the inspiration :) even if its just dribble or randomness it's still something.

its a no go.

Very tired of having to use this phone so tonight my post is short. Tomorrow will he a better update because I can use my moms computer.

Day 8, over & out. Ps, any one want a sigma 10-20mm wide angle lens? Selling it to hopefully get a new computer.

This is getting old

Not having a computer is getting real old, in a way its nice but in reality its been difficult. Once you don't have one you realize how dependent you are on one, how much you actually do on one. Then BAM its gone and you're like "well, crap."

Today was a big day. Gage went to school. It's only for two days but incoming kindergarten kids go and get familiar with the teachers, school and each other. They read books, sung songs, had a snack, recess, and worked on the letter A. He got in the bus like he had been doing it for years. Tomorrow is the last day and then summer. Not quite sure what day it starts but here we start after labor day.

So here is day 7, hoping tomorrow I get to post from an actual computer! Maybe even get to actually post the photos I have taken. Goodnight.

But i cant sleep!

If tonight is any indication how its going to be come Sept, we're going to be in trouble. Gage is restless. The nights Jason work are normally a issue with him because he doesn't like him going so tack on the whole going to school tomorrow, he's not wanting to go to sleep. I just can't wait for school to officially start /sarcasm. I plan on starting our school routine possibly 1-2 weeks before school starts. That way we are all adjusted and not dragging on the first day. Can I just say I still can't believe we are at this point already?! Geeze.

We have an old desktop set up. Jason has to work on it some to hopefully get it working. We need a computer. There is no doubt we need one. He will be getting info from a school in the mail soon. We are going to look it over and see if its the right school for him. I think he needs this. He wants it, so I support him fully. When he is done, I want to take some photography classes.

Day six a success. Boys are in bed, bishop is asleep in the swing, diaper laundry is going and I hate typing on my phone. So goodnight!

Why can't I twitch my nose like Samantha Stevens?

Lately my house has been bothering me, we moved in just over a year ago and it took several months before the house officially became ours. Many of you probably know the whole she-bang drag out issues we had with it so I'm not going to hash it out again. Basically, we weren't sure if we were staying or going. So we never really 100% settled in. Even after living there over a year I still don't feel like it's my house. We haven't painted mainly because it can become costly but we really just have not settled in. We have hung some photos but it's slowly becoming cluttered.

It's driving me nuts. I have decided I am going to just start pitching things left and right to get rid of it. I can't believe how much and how quickly things can accumulate. I'm not the best house keeper but I do try. I also have 3 boys who it doesn't matter how much effort you put into keeping a room clean are going to destroy it in a mere matter of seconds. Heck, just Dane could do the destruction by himself.

But I am starting to feel more at home, like it is ours. It's so strange how emotionally I just have not connected. Even after Bishop was born there this past September, the emotions just aren't there yet.

With that said, I do wish I could twitch my nose and everything does exactly what I want it to. The floor sweeps itself (what the hell were we thinking with no carpet?!), or that the counters were instantly clean. The toilets scrubbed themselves, the laundry wash, dried and put away with two twitches. I think you catch my drift. I would only use it for good, well, maybe. Oh the joy of thoughts about never having to physically do any of that stuff again. I'd be one happy camper.

Who am I kidding though? I'd be lucky to get a sneeze to wash my windows. I am glad that I managed to get a day five written on a real computer instead of my evo. That was a major pain, it's fun in small amounts but when you only have that to connect you to the internet it gets old and fast. Hopefully soon we'll have a new computer to use. Two comps are shot, they would cost the same to buy new to repair them.

Ah, oh well. So happy day five! See you all tomorrow :)

Quality time

Day four is here and I'm still on my phone. It's not bad but attempting to blog is a wee bit difficult. Hopefully that will change soon. Anyways its kinda been nice, no 5 year old to hound about getting on to play nick Jr or super mario. We also no longer have tv so we have been snuggling while watching movies of their choices. Tangled has been a first choice. I have also gotten my butt beat several times at chutes and ladders.

Sorry this is short but the phone is very annoying. Tomorrow I will be able to post my photos also using my moms comp.

Goodnight!

day three: i killed another one

Well this sucks, I was on the POS Compaq today and it died. Jason says that he should be able to get it back up again but this right here proves how unreliable the computer really is. We need on so he can take classes online and some sandy seeing as we no longer have tv.

I can type my posts here obviously but can't post my once a day photo. I took one still. I'm hoping to have the laptop up soon. He works tonight and something to keep me occupied after he leaves and the boys are in bed. My nights would become very boring. Using my phone would also get very old. It honestly already has. So I'm doing to call it quits. I still got day three in!